Tuesday, April 24, 2018
It rained hippos and zebras yesterday. And it hailed. It was like a hurricane without the wind. It came in bands from odd directions. At one time I had to get away from my window as there was lightening along with the hail.
They caught the Waffle House shooter. I had a coworker that lived very close to there and she was very frightened. I was even a little afraid to be outside myself thinking that dude could come up Dobson Pike and be in my town somewhere. I heard he was naked so he couldn't get that far I guess.
I guess he was some troubled kid. The problem is - a lot of them are these days. And with drugs and gangs. He's just one of many. Could happen any time we are out to any of us where someone's cannon gets loose and starts shooting around.
So a few oddities to the day yesterday but I got my Beth Moore study done at lunch. Only one more day (lesson) to do. These are very time consuming.
I did my cleanse yesterday with ease. The hardest part of the day was coming home and smelling bacon cooking. They had omelettes for dinner. I didn't throw in the towel though. I kept on with it and had my little Thai Chili Harvest Thins which is a plant based snack - the Isagenix came out with a new snack that you can eat on cleanse day. I don't have my last chocolate nor my last IsaSnack at the end of cleanse time - but I withhold those and do either the Whey Thins or the Harvest Thins at 7 p.m. along with some decaf coffee. This holds me so I can sleep.
I kicked my feet up with my cup of coffee on the side table, and got under a blanket and watched more of Keep Your Daydream. They were in Boston and New York. I love watching this on YouTube. I used to like the shows on Travel Channel before the Travel Channel nose dived into other things. I forgot her name but Samantha somebody used to travel and do a show on the hotel, restaurants, city vibe, etc. I loved that one too. This family does a professional job with this. They should be on the big networks. But...somehow I suspect if other dynamics were involved it would change the show. These directors will have to change something you know. I enjoy watching it. New episode every week but I usually let YouTube just randomly take me to the next one I've not seen. I would love to be a Patron. Maybe someday but not right now when spouse out of work. But I'd love to be an "insider".
Sleep was REAL good. A few odd dreams. And I think I'm going to get off and go ahead and get ready and get to work and try to attack my stack.
I get to eat food today and have already had my strawberry shake. Not sure what I'll have for lunch. Maybe something from the freezer. And tonight I'll have to download the next Beth Moore video. It's 6.99 a week to rent it. Not bad. I'm just hoping I can get all the lessons done b/w each week's video. I had planned on doing the video one week and discussing the lesson the next week - which gives two weeks to get all the lessons. But everyone wanted to do a compiled session in 6 weeks instead of 12. So I'm game, and of course will be flexible - but I'm probably going to get behind at some point. It's been a struggle working FT and trying to get the lessons crammed in. I can see this falling apart quickly. Had I gone to church Sunday I'd not gotten it done. So I'm not sure how the future weeks will be. If we have any plans at all it'll throw me behind. I was going to do a lesson last night but I've found on cleanse nights after working all day - I can't sit and focus a whole lot. My brain already exhausted from the work day w/o having a lot of nourishment. It's best to just relax and watch a show or something as I get drowsy and head to bed. I will get it figured out - or not - but will do the best I can. And yes you are right. Not giving up blog time. ;-) Nope! Not! That's my time to de-stress away the world and decompress. If I didn't have the blog I'd combust.
Anyway, ya'll have a superb Tuesday!
Monday, April 23, 2018
Well, is it really Monday already? I'm afraid it is. And it is a rainy Monday too, but looks like it will clear for my commute in. I see rain a lot in the 15 day outlook. It's April so we should have some pretty flowers come May.
George and I were talking about the planting we normally do this time of year. I cut back severely last year. I gave George the beds to plan herbs. The flowers never really did well for some reason. Even when I watered them. And quite frankly - I despise having to water - our lifestyle and commutes just do not lend to gardening. By the time we get home it's time to eat, maybe watch a show as it gets dark, and think about bedtime. So we quit doing the garden a while back - just easier to get things from the store as needed. George still grows herbs which do really well at tending to themselves and many grow back the next year. I would love a garden if we were here all day to tend to it in the early morning or late evening - and we could get the other stuff done during the day. But - anyway live and learn - even my flowers are getting fewer each year just b/c I don't want to have to tend to anything. I have a hard time getting the inside tended to - especially as the years pass. So we DO intend to go to the garden center. I will get a few for the mail box. George is trying to talk me into getting fewer. He said the mailbox flowers had too many in it - but that is what makes it pretty. I wondered if he was wanting me to spend less money. If that is they issue though, he should just say so. We have put off going to get flowers until almost May b/c our Aprils get cooler and cooler and the freeze that is supposed to stop by April 15 often exceeds that now by a week or two later.
So, I supposed we will begin planning our meals around some good spring and summer veggies and will find ourselves out and about at the farmer's markets.
I wish George liked to grill - but he does not. I miss grilled food in the summer time. Even grilled veggies are good. Grilled chicken - out of this world. I don't like to grill either b/c every grill makes that noise "poof" at the beginning and it scares me. lol
Well, anyway, yesterday was a pretty relaxing day. A very rainy day - off and on. And I was able to get a lot of the Beth Moore studies done. I have two days left to get two more days of study done. The studies are quite intense. Especially this one. So far it has yet to grab me. But I have learned more by doing some additional study on my own. That made it take longer - several hours.
I did all the laundry and got that finished. Worked on the kitchen some, ground two more weeks of coffee, added some household needs to the Target shopping cart. (I switched from Walmart b/c they never had the items I wanted unless the prices were out of this world. Target, no problem. They have everything I need.) I got ready for my cleanse today, and all that is packed and ready to go.
Then last night I binged watched Keep Your Day Dream (YouTube on the big TV) back to back (loved every minute of it) until I was booted out b/c the Preds were on, lol. I guess that is a good reason to get booted out and I had been watching for a while. Thankfully they let me finish the one I was on b/c if you don't the subscription will think I've already watched it and it won't come up again in the lineup.
Well we have a killer around these parts that went into a Waffle House and began shooting. It happened South of here. Several miles South - like a half an hour south I guess. But he is still out there somewhere. They are still searching for him. All the schools in Metro are on lockdown according to the news. And Katy got a VM from the school system.
I waited til almost 5 to get up this morning just b/c I didn't want to be outside in the dark before the rest of the world got up. It was still dark out but at least it looked like some of the neighbors lights were on. Like that would help if a boogie man came up on me. lol
Well, it's cleanse day and that is ok b/c I don't have to worry about food, I still get coffee, and I get chocolate sea salt caramel bites at least 4 times today. Getting this chocolate during cleanse day really makes me NOT want sweets the rest of the week. I discovered that my 82% cacao chocolates still had 7 g of sugar. :-O Sure doesn't taste like it. So I had tossed those into my shakes sometimes but that is 7g I probably don't need. I'm having to really watch the extras that add up. Then if I want the glass of wine on the weekend or even on a bad stressful day - it won't be the cow's hoof that knocks the trough over.
Don't ask me where that came from - I have no idea.
Oh but I got a treat last night! I visited "Nanny" in my dream. My Mom's Mom. I didn't really SEE her. She was in bed and I came into check on her. She was in the old house on 111 Dimple Court in Columbia, TN - not the other one on Walnut Lane. And I walked in and I saw where she had washed a lot of dishes and they were drying and she had also washed about 200 champagne cups. She either had prepped for a big gathering that had already happened or was about to happen. She wasn't feeling good and when I walked in she asked me to put the dishes up! I told her I missed her and she said she missed me too but really needed the dishes to be put up. lol And that was that. I was on to dream about something else. But it was heartwarming to be back in the place and time and to be in her presence, if only during a dream.
I haven't always talked a lot about Nanny - I end up talking about Mam-ma b/c Mam-ma understood me like no other person ever has. She communicated with me a lot. She allowed and entertained my my playful side But Nanny I spent a lot of time with too. She was a caring grandmother and full of love and concern over my well being. She made sure I was fed, clothed, and taken care of. And when I learned to drive we would go shopping. She bought me clothes since I took her places. It helped me out and I helped her out. She was a very good cook. My favorite things she made were poached egg on toast. And her chocolate fudge pie. But she fixed an awesome ham which I called "city ham" since Mam-ma (the other grandmother) fixed "country ham" -and Nanny's city ham- the likes of which I've not had since and I long to find that taste. They don't make pigs like they used to. lol
Anyway, I'm off to finish getting ready while I can get to the plug and mirror! lol
Sunday, April 22, 2018
We had a little bit of a morning yesterday - well I did - I got the laundry started and that was about it. Had to shower and be ready to head out about Noon. Katy and George found a few things from their yard sailing. And got back just in time for us all to get and ready and out the door.
We had a little trouble getting out of the house - first some of us were running late. Katy and I were trying to get ready at the same time like we do almost every morning. Then as we were backing out of the garage, I decided I needed to go back and get water. I took a sip and set it in the console for later. As we got down the road, Katy said "turn back b/c I don't remember if I turned the hot iron off". So back we went. lol We finally got downtown and parked. We had a few minutes left before needing to be boarded for our pick up bus for the tours of the stars. Something I've always wanted to do. Before we headed out we took pics by Cumberland River on the edge of Nashville. There was a pretty strong current to the river it looked like.
|The Hubster poses, looking cool in his sun glasses.|
|Us Goofballs, trying to take a selfie with the riverfront in the background. lol|
|George, Katy, and Me with Titans Stadium in the background.|
Well, this pic captures a lot actually - the pedal taverns (drink beer and pedal among the streets of downtown Nashville along to loud music), lol. Many bridal parties and birthdays being celebrated in this way. And look on top of the Acme Feed and Seed - the rooftop bars have become quite the thing. And the cranes as you peer down the street - have been a site in downtown Nashville for sometime now and many saying it's our new state bird!
So our bus picked us up and then we picked some other folks up at a hotel and then we were dropped off at another hotel parking lot to get on the bus that would be leading us to our tour. I realized at some point that I had left my bottle of water behind and I was insanely thirsty and a little panicked that we would not be able to get water for some 3 to 4 hours later. Slight panic as I sip water all day long. I was miserable for a few minutes until I finally said to myself "you can do this". I chewed gum some to help. There is not many times when you are in a position where you can't stop and get water when needed. And I felt stuck for a while. After the tour got going my mind wasn't on it so much.
This is Reese Witherspoon's new house.
The next two are Minnie Pearl's estate. I'm unclear if it is still in the family or if it has been sold.
Martina McBride's house below...
And beyond the guys bald head there, you can slightly see Dolly Parton's house.
And we saw some interesting houses.
The next two are of the former home of Toby Keith.
|My World right here....|
|Notice I Found Water! Sticking out of Purse! lol|
Then we went on to dinner at Merchants. You can see George and Katy below talking to some ladies visiting Nashville from Wisconsin.
We got a fancy cocktail while waiting for our table. You know the kind, the $13 one that is skinny and has so many ice cubes that it's gone in 3 sips. Yep - ummm...might have been the best cocktail of my life. It was "The Pimms Cup". Cucumbery taste! mmmmm.
|Mini popcorns served in a tin cup at your table while waiting to order. Nice touch. It was Ranch flavored.|
|Inside Merchants, bottom floor, Nashville, TN|
|Pimm's Cup, Merchants|
|Me being serious about cholesterol and sugar, The Cobb Salad, Merchants|
The Cobb was really good. I enjoyed it very much! Today was Katy's Birthday to me. She paid for the Tour of the Stars and a round of drinks later at Merchants. And we bought dinner!
|Nashville, TN April 21, 2018|
Finally got a really good pic of Nashville - what you can't see is that it was a night filled with energy - lots of people out and about, excited about life, and the warmer weather. We were one of them yesterday.
Getting home was a challenge. Traffic very bad as interstates had some major closures. Finally got home, took dogs out and crashed about 9:30 ish for me and Katy - George stayed up a while.
And this morning, I'll be doing my Beth Moore Bible study. Didn't get a lesson done Friday night, nor yesterday so I have to get three done today! :-O
And the laundry, grocery shopping, and cleaning. And try to insert some "me" time in there somewhere for watching a show or two. I have my blog time but need some more time other than that!
Ya'll have a good Sunday.
Saturday, April 21, 2018
Been a long week and was so happy yesterday that it was Friday. I had to be at the doc office at 3:30. I got there a bit early and they were able to see me early at Summit Eye Associates. I will say that their front desk staffing is a bit disconnected from the rest of the facility, much to my dismay. Most of the time a doc visit usually leads you to a busy but informed front desk unit. I remember last year that when I got there the doctor had cancelled my appointment and the front desk said "we tried to call". They had my old cell phone number so I took that one as my fault, we scheduled another day and I gave them my new cell number and they supposedly entered it in the system. I remember watching her as she looked into the system and made a few clicks - but I could tell she didn't change my number - it was more like she was switching screens around. I said "you are going to change my number right so you will have it in the future". She said "yes mam, I did".
So yesterday I got in and they said "we are charging this to your vision insurance and not your medical insurance but we need you to sign off on that" and handed me paper to circle vision or medical. I said "you know, they have always done "medical" in the past since I have a condition of pre diabetes. She said "no ma'am they did vision last year. So I circled vision thinking I must be freaking going crazy - they are the office insurance professionals, I guess they know what they did b/c they see their systems and I don't.
But I was sure enough that I called George and he seemed to think it had been filed through medical and I said "that is what I thought but they are adamant it was vision". So I went up and gave them my vision card saying "Since you are saying that it is going to be filed through vision I need to give you my vision card so no one is upset in the end when the bill comes to my house". (lol) She said "Ma'am we have your vision card - we have both." I said OK.
So they called me back and the lady did my tests where they blow the puff in your eye and they do the test where you look out over the green valley and see a balloon. And then they did my eye exam.
And the lady said "ok we are going to be filing this under your medical insurance today". I said "oh really, they told me out front it would be vision". She said "no it's your medical" she said "sometimes they get confused." I said "well I circled 'vision' on the form b/c they told me to so I need to change it to medical b/c I signed off on that I don't want it to be done wrong." She said "oh it's ok - it won't matter". So then another girl came and got me and took me to another office to dilate my eyes. Doctor Young came in and looked at my eyes and told me I had a thinning retina in one spot but no concern to me at that point. And then said my eyes hadn't changed from last year and he could see cataracts forming but no concern yet about that. And he was gone in a flash. I made note that it was a Friday afternoon. It's ok that it was quick. I didn't really need him any further and had no questions and if he verified my eyes didn't have any thing major wrong then I guess quick is ok. And he was off in a flash. And then as we were walking out the door with the girl to take me to get my eye glasses adjusted (I had asked b/c they keep slipping down my nose), she stopped in her tracks and said "wait a minute, why is vision circled?". Oh my WORD! Bless her. She said "you are medical, so I don't understand this". I said "well I do, the folks out front told me today it would be vision and told me I needed to circle vision". She said "oh my gosh - I'm so glad I caught this as it would be a lot of trouble for everyone later when it gets filed wrong". Me over there is going "I tried to tell 'em but they were adamant they knew what they were talking about". She said "I'm soooo sorry, but we'll get this fixed. She crossed out vision and circled medical and had me initial it.
Geeeeez. I'm not sure why the front desk help can't be efficient. Maybe they don't pay them anything, maybe they aren't engaged in their work and just want to get off on a Friday afternoon. I think I even said to them, "I bet you all are ready to get out of here". Didn't really mean it in a bad way but now that I think about it - they sure weren't "on top of it". Let's just say "Employee of the Month" would have no meaning to them.
So anyway aside from that absurdity - and let me say the rest of the staff were nice - even the people that didn't have a clue at the front desk were nice til I started questioning them and then they were acting like I was a darn nuisance to society.
But it was done and over with for another year and I left the confusion behind and as I left the building into the sunshine and warmer air - I said to myself "I'm free" (no place I have to be, go, and no one to answer to, just my own agenda).
Well I did have to go back home to my family - after all I'm only talking an hour or two here - not a lifetime. But I had this sudden itch to just shop my way home, stop here and there and yon and just work my way back. Well, so I went to Star Bucks and used a gift card to get an unsweet, iced green tea. El yummo. Well to me it is refreshing.
Then I went and parked at the wine store to get a bottle of dry red. I wanted a glass of wine tonight as a treat.
Then I finally made it to the wine store. I ran into a prior coworker, Howard, and said hello to him and told him to tell his wife Martha hello as well who also had worked there. Then I went to the cheap red wine aisle, but - I noticed that Coppola was not too bad of a price (my favorite and also the uncle of Nicolas Cage - I think) who is also a favorite. Since I was in a jovial mood, it was Friday, and I was "free" I felt a calling for the Coppola! And then I saw a guy in the corner doing wine tasting tests. He saw my eyes peer around the sign and held a bottle up saying "wine tasting?"....I'm thinking this day is getting better already. So off to the corner and to sip some tastes of a new wine that has come in. The first taste was if it were PGA itself. lol Somebody slap me I was thinking, I may be free but I DO need to get home tonight. He asked me how I liked it. I was about to answer honestly but another customer came up and I thought "oh good, saved by the blonde". So he began serving her. And then poured us both the next one. I loved it and had to have it. I also liked the one after that. I wanted to buy both but didn't. It was smooooothe. And then the blonde said she preferred vodka and came in for SCORE. She said it was cheap but one of the best vodka's out there. I don't drink vodka much, but sometimes with cranberry juice and in a mixed drink it can be refreshing. We always keep Smirnoff with lime in the freezer. Anyway, I got some of that too. I guess it is dangerous to be in an "I'm free" mood when you are out shopping.
Anyway, I finally went home. I spent more money than I meant to.
Then when I got home George showed me what he had bought for me. Knowing my increased desire to eat more fish - he bought some cod and some salmon for us to fix for dinners.
And he bought some ultra thin pizza.
It is a fact that almost everyone cheats with pizza and he knows it is coming - so he bought the ultra thin crust. I will admit I did have some moments this week where I thought, "how am I going to handle pizza night?" Really meaning - what is my plan, what is my rule? Scrape off the topping? Only have one piece? lol I hadn't really come up with the answer yet by the way but the ultra thin helps.
And then I opened the smooooooothe bottle of wine and poured a half of the amount that I would normally. So that I could supposedly "have seconds". lol I sipped it and enjoyed it and discovered that it is much more enjoyable when you only have it occasionally as opposed to having a happy hour at home every night. I'm ok with a lime bubble water when I get home most nights. I've found I enjoy just sipping on something in a wine glass. It's a mind set. But the wine last night was a treat!
Then Katy discovered she could not get into her email.
Not on her phone and not on her laptop. That suggested it was an AOL problem unless she's at her limit of storage with her free account. You can't get chat help unless you have a paid account. She refused to call and talk to someone in India she said. lol So she emailed them.
Anyway, we all decided that we would do my belated birthday present today from Katy. We are going to go and do the tour of the stars on a bus in Nashville. I've always wanted to do it. But never cashed in on it b/c quite frankly it's expensive. But they really wanted to do it so Katy is buying my ticket and her ticket. George is getting his separate. I think it's $49 each for three hours. It's a pretty day and they have space left, so we're going to do that today. And we are going to eat somewhere cool downtown after that and Katy is going to get her some boots downtown - or at least look at them. She needs boots for Texas.
She is also counting the weeks - 5 weeks til her Texas move.
So I really need to be doing some things this morning but after last week's crazy busy week - I find myself a bit frozen in place and not wanting to move. I went to bed at 9:30 and slept til 6. Maisy woke me up because George and Tugie were up and she wanted me to get up too. I put her down and after she gave up begging and with me telling her to go see her Daddy, she finally went. I tried to sleep on. After going outside and eating breakfast too she came back to me and asked me to get up or either let her in bed. I finally just gave up and got Roger out of bed and set him down and he ran to George. And then got up myself. I guess George had to take 3 dogs out at 3 different times as they all got up separately. I did make coffee but while it was brewing saw an opportunity to go back to bed. I just wasn't in the mood to be up yet having been woken up in my REM stage, and dreaming like everything.
So Maisy wanted up in bed. Then Findlay got up there. I propped my pillow up and began playing Candy Crush - just trying to wake up. I was settled in bed with dogs and asked George to do a big favor for me. "Will you go bring me a cup of coffee?" lol. He did. And I played candy crush going up several levels. I thought to myself. Now THIS is a LOVELY Saturday morning!
I got up (again) to do laundry but my legs brought me over to the computer to do a blog entry. My family will be home at 11, so I need to get moving. They are out yard sailing this morning. I told them I wanted to stay home and do laundry. But I really need to be doing my Beth Moore lesson as well and grabbing something to eat. I want to eat eggs but concerned about the cholesterol. Anyway I'll figure it out.
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend. Tell me what you are doing? Staying at home? Going out? How's the weather where you are?
More manana Lord Willing!
Friday, April 20, 2018
Thank goodness it's Friday! TGIF - shout it out - twist and shout - get on your knees and thank the Lord. I'm so ready for a rest. My mind, body, and soul has been yanked here there and yon with everything going on at work and at home. I'm ready for a rest, a change of agenda, and a slower pace. I've had VERY little spare time to do anything I wanted to this week so I'm looking forward to have a slice of time that is mine.
George is excited to have had a good interview yesterday with a manufacturing company about 45 min away (in low traffic volume) and he is invited back to speak with the rest of the team next week. He also has another interview with a big hospital purchasing medical equipment next week. He is excited that things are happening. I'm excited for him. It takes a few seeds being planted - actually a lot of seeds, but God always stirs something up - I personally think He has to see you are invested - and George has been planting seeds from day 1. He's even been charting it on a big board at the house. So I hope that he ends up with two offers and has to make a decision. I think I know which one it would be. I am happy and confident that something will come from one of these at least. He needs to be happy and enjoy his work. So even if it's a longer drive that does count for something if if like what you do.
Katy said that they worked on the outside of their house in Texas yesterday - the ranch crew is doing a lot of the work. They removed fencing and it was very difficult work. The inside is being prepped for painting and the new tub arrived. Slowly but surely things are happening there. Hope it's all done when Katy gets there. It'll be the easiest thing if it is, because there is a lot of "stuff" coming from our house to Texas! lol
I decided to pray to God for help on the nutrition thing. I mentioned it yesterday. I know I've been discouraged. I just have to realize that bloodwork readings are a picture of a longer period of time than just how you ate the last month. I also realize now that all the changes I made were really just the top of the iceburg. So I'm trying to be encouraged that I can continue to eat better as I learn more. I'm realizing that the smaller things are adding up and that's it's not ok to just eat white rice and white potatoes any time I want (if I'm not on the meds) and that sauces and condiments and salad dressings have loads of sugar. And if I want that glass of wine with pasta - that is not ok. Yeah sometimes these things will be ok on a periodic basis but I think I've been saying ok on a daily basis as long as there is protein. It needs to be the rarity and not the norm. Portions are getting better for me. So I feel more encouraged to get there and I have my adventurous side that is going to lead me through the process of learning. I just really need to be careful if I'm not going to take the meds. So the next 3 month reading will be important. I guess that will be in July.
Well, we had a good Leadership session yesterday with our CEO. He showed us a good video - it talked a lot about millennials and how the current work force doesn't understand them and has given up working with them - he walked through why they were the way they are and how we could have more empathy with our teams/coworkers. Amazingly enough, my presentation had a lot of the same points as this one - God is good how he pulls things together sometimes. But the video talked a lot about how the millennials are wanting things instantly b/c that's how they have had it. And real life doesn't always happen instantly. I'm not a millennial but - I often want things instantly myself. I have a vision and I don't stop til the vision transforms in front of me. But one thing that is different b/w me and a millennial is that I am resilient. I keep trying and it's hard for me to give up. The video talked about how millennials go from job to job looking for the job that is going to be perfect. Once my heels are dug in I'm determined. A lot of the younger ones just get frustrated and leave. I get frustrated and blog, lol. Sometimes privately. At least it keeps the household in tact when I don't come home every night pulling my hair out.
At some point I guess when you switch over from your 40's to 50's you realize life ain't always about work. And even though work is important and you work for work as if you are working for God and it is usually your sustainability - so it is important. But sometimes you have to look at it a little differently and realize that work is not the only thing in life. All of our career we look for that balance. It's already set up to where it's out of balance so you are already at a disadvantage on the family and household front. And as a woman sometimes it's harder b/c the household falls onto you. So when you ARE finally home you have to make the most of it and "let it go" and "leave it at the office". It's a struggle to get sleep sometimes. And that becomes important for your health and well being if you don't get enough. And I've been lucky that George has been so good to help. He cooks and cleans and with our sharing of the responsibilities it seems to work. But in much of my previous years I've been so stressed. I'm always a planner and prepper and it always stressed me that life wouldn't slow down so I could do it all just right! lol But yeah I think I've calmed down quite a bit since 50 came my way. I'm more patient, and realize life isn't going to be a bowl of cherries every day when others are involved are in some cases not involved - but I've learned to make my own cherries. Heck I don't even like cherries - can we say blackberries?
I make my own blackberries! Anyway I can.
At the end of the day - we just need to say we've done the best we can with what we have, with others, with our jobs, with our diets, with our family.
I have to go to work now - otherwise I will have not done my best. So I rattled off and went off on tangents but I've tied it back up the best I can in a hurry to get to work, lol. Ya'll have a good day.
I have an eye appointment today and have to leave at 2:30 but it's ok b/c I've stayed late and worked through lunches most all week.
I'm ready for some down time.
Thursday, April 19, 2018
Good morning! Well, I am thoroughly confused now about what the heck I should be eating.
So much information and each one having a "study" to back it up. It's hard to disseminate what you should be eating. Now they are saying to eat butter and animal fat and go ahead and make those eggs with the bacon grease. One podcast says to step up the protein, another says protein should only be 15% of your diet and it should be fish and chicken and hardly any red meat and plant based in addition. It's hard to know what my diet should be.
I'm also looking at this from a lot of various angles myself - I've got to maintain my BP, my sugar, and my cholesterol and I need to protect my muscles from aging and from auto immune issues - which I've not pressed for diagnosis. So it's hard to eat the right things that will impact all of those issues and the diets for each conflict at times.
Lower salt - I think I've finally done a lot of that. And my BP meds seem to work.
Sugar - I had taken the meds and cut back on things but honestly - I really kept about the same diet only curbing a few things and adding more nutrition in. The meds kept my sugar in check. Until the past month or 6 weeks when I began introducing Isagenix, higher protein, cutting out most sugar, getting more vitamins in my body, eating more salads (although my choice of dressing filled with soy or unhealthy oils and more sugar than I realized), and eating wild caught albacore. While introducing more vitamins/nutrition, the blood sugar pills seemed to be too much. So I came off of it. So while on the meds and not eating right it was lower and off the meds and eating much better it was higher. But I think I can eat better and it will come down. I hope. It's a gamble and I hope I'm making the right decisions.
So then I've stepped up the protein, eating more meat, less carbs, having more shakes with higher nutrition and protein as well, began eating more eggs (2 to 3 per week) - and so that may have made my cholesterol worse?
Then we took the trip traveling and I threw most caution to the wind. I had shrimp, regular pasta, white rice, eggs, bacon and white hashbrown potatoes and then came home and the next week had my blood drawn for lab work. I don't know over a time period how long it takes to impact but that couldn't have helped any.
Anyway, I'm discouraged. I know that hope needs to come from somewhere. I know that I have listened to podcasts where people have overcome their "numbers" - both cholesterol and sugar, so I need to find those people and figure it out.
I do know this - that part of the success of those folks is eliminating not only the processed food (enriched flour, wheat, gluten, etc.) but have eliminated all the bad oils: canola oil, sunflower oil, vegetable oils of any kind. Extra Virgin Olive Oil in its true form is ok and coconut oil ok (some argue about that one too but most have said it was ok). Most are saying use the butter, and allow yourself the animal fats that it's needed to be able to absorb the nutrition and take it to the cell level. I've not eliminated my oils. I have not eliminated all processed foods. A lot of them but not all of them. I've mainly looked at gluten free things and whole grain things - not looking to see what "oils" the bread and crackers and power bars were made of. So I can make that improvement.
So there is a little hope and a few more improvements to be made and of course there is the exercise element that can always be added to make a difference. So there is hope left.
I think it was the podcast yesterday that said "protein" and "meats" are not the answer that threw me off. I think I have to develop a plan of action and a new set of rules. That's really what I'm trying to analyze - to come up with a new set of rules. This is absolutely obsessing me right now. And that's ok b/c I need to get it right. I need to maintain the numbers and I want to do it med free (BP meds for a while though). So I need to develop my rules, my confines, and my diet. And I'm laughing as I sit here at my desk looking at the "low fat diet sheet my very elderly doc gave me" and my iphone by my side that has the podcast with the latest nutritional studies in it saying "eat the animal fats and butters".
I have lost my trust in doctors - not totally. I respect them, and I don't think that "where they are" is their fault. They can't practice entirely anymore. It's all based on what the insurance allows. They end up going through the motions of their day allowing the insurance to tell them how to "doctor" us. Some maybe keep up their training and keep up with the studies and some may not. It seems to me that my doctor is or used to be a really good one. I do think he tries and I do think he monitors. However, he's getting up there in years. And they have so many patients that it's difficult for them to spend a lot of time on one case. I also think it's a possibility that he is overlooking some things that he might of sent for an MRI or xray or extra lab work - b/c he's avoiding the insurance night mare and costs that may be charged to their practice. Changing doctors would not necessarily help me any unless a younger one would have more up to date knowledge of how to help me help myself. It seems they ALL just throw meds at the issue.
If George were not in b/w jobs I'd consider seeing a nutritionist. However, I'm really good at researching and coming up with data and doing my own analysis, so I'm kinda determined to do that first.
The Isagenix is bringing some weight off - the cleanse day is helping to get rid of the hard to get rid of fat in places. So I will keep trying and I will keep updating my new set of rules.
And it occurred to me yesterday that prayer should be rule number 1 and why won't God help me with that when He helps me with everything else.
So my presentation went well yesterday. I was shocked to get claps at the end. I think that may be the first time that has ever happened. Anyway, I didn't feel like it was as polished or as deep as it could have been. But I do feel like it went well to get a lot of the main message across and I did as good as I could considering it's open enrollment and so many other interruptions and irons in the fire. Way too much going on. Felt some relief when it was over. Enough relief that I forgot I had my Bible Study last night for a few hours. I had texted George saying "what's for dinner?" And he said "umm Bible Study?" and he said I confused him. I was confused myself.
But quickly snapped back into reality and I realized how much I had put into doing the presentation b/c I totally forgot about everything else besides that and open enrollment. So in hopes that I'm not getting alzheimer's myself, hated that I zoned out on what day it is and something as important as company coming over. But I'm going to say that it was "memory overload" - b/c this week is nuts.
So I came home - actually left about 4:45 so I could rush home and try to clean house as I had chosen not to stay up late to do it since I had my presentation and I needed everything my brain could give me after such a ridiculous week of too many things going on and too many interruptions and things pulling me here there and yon. When I got home the house was perfect - all clean, candles burning, floors vacuumed, dishes up, surfaces clean, pet beds tidied, pet toys cleaned up. Oh thank the Lord! George and Katy had done it already. Bless them!
I then made popcorn and burned it and had to make another batch. I suck sometimes at life --I really do! I'm such a goof ball! I was trying to multitask and do some other things and forgot to watch the popcorn for 5 seconds b/w pops!
Anyway the Beth Moore video was good. Everyone came that said they would. And we figured out how to do the lesson breakdowns. And so we are going to have some homework this week. And we'll do the next one next week. I am glad that the Lord came through to me so we could make good use of the new sofa and chair set and TV to His glory! And we studied and watched and discussed in comfort at least instead of sitting on Itchy and Scratchy. lol
So, that is all I can type right now. I need to go to work. lol
I hope you all have a wonderful day! Thanks for reading if you made it this far!
Wednesday, April 18, 2018
Life's a little crazy right now. A bit too many irons in the fire and I'm feeling crunched but will look forward to the weekend.
I've not had hardly any spare time since the weekend. But tomorrow night maybe I can kick back a bit with not an entire list of things to be done before going to bed.
Yesterday went to see a friend that used to work with us - and she is in Hospice. They say she will get to go home for a while. She has cancer in its 4th stage. We are very saddened - horrified actually. We love her and she has been a good friend to me and to all of us. Full of life and a sense of humor. A good person. It was wonderful to spend time with her, laugh with her, and to see that she is at peace. She is sad but at peace.
I have a presentation to give today at work. I changed some things around on it and went over it in my mind - what little moments I could steal in the day to do it. It's hard to get anything done until 4 p.m. b/c of all the interruptions and needs - normally I get to "my" agenda of work on my desk after lunch or around 1 or 2. But lately it's been 4 p.m. when most start leaving, the plants have gone home, and I can get 1 hour of work done. lol Isn't that sad? Anyway, yesterday I stayed til 6 so I could at least finish ONE thing!!!!
So today I give my presentation to the Regional VP Sales Group - mainly on Onboarding and Development. Giving a few tips here and there. Streamlining a few things. Letting them know that HR is there for the life cycle of their employees. I love to talk about HR so it should go well.
Tonight several of us gather here at the house for a Beth Moore video as we kick off our Bible Study together.
My house is not as "put together" as I'd like for it to be, but I'm letting go. I will clean up Katy's yogurt cup, her q tips, her coffee mug and apple slice wrapping that is left on the side table though I guess. lol I've tried to clean as I go this week but there's not been much time for cleaning b/w working extra, running errands, and taking some time in the kitchen giving some others a break.
Above you will see the Power Bowl I fixed for us last night with the cilantro lime dressing. That was one of the tastiest things I've had in a while. Loved it.
So - someone mentioned Rob Wolf - I think I had his podcast on recently. I think he was the one that was a little over my head - talking about Keto and such. I don't know much about that yet. That was for another level. At least that was that podcast session I listened to.
The nutrition research is interesting. I'm a little nervous and confused though about taking the meds versus not taking the meds. I'm taking BP meds. That is all I am taking. I've heard bad things about the statins. I don't want to put them in my body and I know that you CAN control cholesterol - I just hope that I CAN so I think I will take the 3 months to FOCUS heavily on bringing the numbers down on my own. Sadly I was going to do that before and failed. I had changed my diet a lot but still allowed certain things. Now I'm refining it further and we'll see what that will do. I'm going to stop eating dressings with canola oil, sugar and other things in it. I eat a lot of salads and I can see now that I have to switch to olive oil and vinegar. But - I also see that it doesn't have to taste like oil and vinegar. The dressing I made last night was awesome.
George said after Katy left he would help me and we'd concentrate together. I can't wait that long. I'm working on it now and I'll have to say "no" to a lot of foods.
Well, I better go. I have 30 minutes to do makeup, hair, clean up a bit, fix a shake for breakfast and then head out the door.
Rush rush rush and I'm so tired of it right now.