Saturday, July 21, 2018
Good morning! Yes, often I've been called "The Sonster"..... in case you were wondering. I guess it goes back to the Saturday Night Live days.
Well, here is what I know.....
Mom sent a message for me to call her. So I called before I left the house. She wanted to cancel the birthday party due to the threat of severe weather. So I cancelled the reservations.
Then George sent a message that his Mom was going into Hospice care and that he could go to dinner now. So I told him there was no longer a dinner. So in my head I was thinking that George and I would just eat together since he was free.
Pause blog for reality moment: Mmmmm...the coffee is good this morning!
So worked all day and then called Mom and wished her happy birthday. No rain around us anywhere, but oh well.
Got a text from George when I got home that he would be at the hospital again. I texted "I thought you were free" but no he wasn't. So that was ok. That meant I had a night to myself at home to get started on the weekend. Granny doesn't know anyone, not even her own name, so I did not go to the hospital. I just came home to eat and be with the doggies. I had a panini roast beef sandwich with herbed cheese and dijon mustard. I'd not had a sandwich in a long time. Whole grain, and meat that was free of hormones and nitrates and such. I actually ate a few pringles. Outside my "eat this" zone but I wanted the crunch on my sandwich.
So my flat iron came in. And I tried to style my hair with it. Oh my. I think that is going to take some practice. I just have used a curling brush for so long. So I watched some You Tubes on how to style your hair with it. I guess I need to watch some more. I need to wait til the spray comes in that you spray to protect your hair. I will watch some more YouTube videos as well as I'm not sure I have it down yet anyway.
So it appears that Hospice will be able to attend to George's Mom at the Providence place that she is in. They have to remove the bed - so George and BIL Kevin went over last night to Granny's room and took out the bed so that the hospital bed can be brought in.
So the storms never came and it will be a while before we plan the next try at doing a birthday dinner. Our weekends are booked for the next three weekends. It is possible that we can do another Friday night or Sunday. But honestly I really don't want to make any more plans yet, just so they can be cancelled. We don't know what is going to happen with George's Mom. Well we do, we just don't know when. I'll have to find a time when we can all get together. I have to get with George, get with my sister, get with Mom, call the reservations, check on the reservations - but we'll wait to do all that again til as it is in George's Mom's last days. We are pretty much booked up for the next few weeks. Next weekend we have dog trims and our friends are coming over. The next weekend is George's birthday weekend which he has all planned out, and the next weekend is the Global Celebration event starting up.
Such as is life. I've had to take a little time off the last couple of nights. My brain is fried from crazy stupid busy days and lots going on at work and home - so while I've had time at home the last two nights - I've just rested my mind for sanity sake.
Did I mention how good the coffee is this morning!
I'm sitting in the sun room and enjoying the coffee and the cool air from the cold front coming through the screens.
So what to do today? The normal Saturday stuff.
____Try to cross some things off the Summer Bucket List
____Update the private blog
____Look up some recipes
____Get caught up with the Mind and Body course
It's been a rough time lately on my psyche. Just things I'm having to work through or decide about - what is acceptable, what is not, what do I really want here and there and so forth. But I think all in all I just need a mind rest - too many things going on and not enough of me to go around. And that makes me freeze up all over the place. When you get too many things going you become paralyzed and have to find a balance. So I shut down at that point til I get a balance. No one is happy around me either til I do. lol
So I get this big to do list going at the beginning of the week to get me focused. And then life happens and before you know it's Friday, the list is forgotten - maybe 1/4 of it checked off - maybe 1/2. But all in all probably more checked off having the list than if I didn't have the list.
I'm disappointed in myself for letting life in the past two weeks get me down. I had been so happy. Was I so happy that I thought I wasn't ever going to be unhappy or moved again by anyone or anything else? I guess so. lol But when things happen that make you sad, mad, disappointed - you can't control your feelings - they just have to happen. You can control your reactions to a point. My problem is that it eats me up til it is solved. I don't know any other way to get past that. I did give it to God and let Him handle it. I can rejoice in that and He did handle it. Pretty quickly. But the funk has remained as I pull out of the averted crisis. I've just been sad really - I keep using the word traumatized - that is a strong word but I can't think of another word or phrase except maybe "continued to be bothered by" or "continue to be worried over" that said thing will happen again. Anyway it's taken a lot out of me- made me unhappy. And then it's just kinda made the rest of life dull I guess and zapped my fervor over life. And that spiraled downward on me b/c it just casts a shadow on everything. I know I have to speak in code on here in the blog and can't really say a lot but I'm saying what I can the best way I know how.
I'm pulling out of the funk though. I can feel it. I think it has almost led me into a depression of sorts. Not a bad one, but I guess my spirits are just down right now. I know that the weather is not helping. But this mornings chill in the air after a cold front is helping me quite a bit. I'm disappointed over a few things but it's ok. Never hurts in life to have a reality check. And that has really what I've been going thru. I'll be back to my sparky side before long hopefully.
And we never had any storms around these parts anyway - one got close to us this morning while I was asleep but missed us.
And that is all I know on a Saturday morning. Wonder what the day will bring.
Friday, July 20, 2018
George's Mom had a mini stroke. I don't know much other than she is in the hospital. Very little information coming my way about it. George's sister was with her yesterday - while George continued to work the temp purchasing job at the zinc mine and George was at the hospital last night after work. He got home close to 10. I asked if he wanted me to come and he said he didn't need me there so I came home. She is not talking a lot, staring a lot, and kidney function not working properly. That is all the information that has been released to me.
Our kitchen was an absolute mess so I spent about an hour cleaning it up. I fixed a salad for dinner. I had the TV to myself so I caught up on Below Deck Med, and the You Tube Shows - the Sailing ones. So calming. These are in my sidebar also to their links.
I am behind getting my Mind and Body program done- several days behind now and also have not worked on the business much either. I've needed some down time where I'm not just constantly working on something. I think it's usually the weekends when I get things done anyway. The day job has also been so stupidly stressful which is very draining to not just me but several. So I allowed myself time to not rush around and not be pulled in 40 directions last night. So many other things that needed to happen this week anyway - orders that needed to be placed, birthday gifts to shop for, unwrapping Mom's gift, wrapping another back up, going to the store, coloring my hair. All of that had to happen after work this week- then by the time we eat and have our time together - the evening is done. But we knew it would be that way. Some weeks are better than others. But the good thing about my business is that I can pick it up and work on it when I want, and let it go when I'm stressed. Good thing I enjoy it! It's fun being around positive influences. But last night was a night off for me to not focus on ANYTHING and let the mind rest. I feel much better for it this morning.
Supposed to have Severe Weather today. Hope all turns out ok. Looks like I'll be driving in it this evening. Even hail and tornadoes expected. Yikes. Prayers please.
Off to try to get a couple of things done this morning! Ya'll have a splendid day! TGIF!
Wondering how George's Mom is doing this morning. And what the deal is. :-( Prayers for her as well.
Thursday, July 19, 2018
ARGHHHHHHH! My keyboard is driving me crazy. I'll be typing and then it will start typing in one of the sentences above instead of where it needs to be. I don't understand what is happening to it.
Ok back to my story. I did get Mom another gift bought - but sadly not for the same investment amount. :-( I am going to just use the shake I bought her and decided to use the blender as well and that way I have one for work. I need the extra glasses anyway b/c the shake glasses for the blender are used so frequently that I never have enough w/o having to rewash every morning. Most of the time they are sitting in the dirty dishwasher, have to be retrieved and then washed by hand - so this gives me two more and now they can be run through the dishwasher.
I did get my flat iron ordered and it should arrive today.
I did get a Paparazzi jewelry person in the line up for my Sip and Shop in October. I have Trades of Hope coming, a Lula Roe person coming and friend and partner Lisa and I will be doing our nutritional system. So we are all booked for the vendor line up. I'm looking so forward to doing this for my friends and neighbors.
I did pick up my Rx (BP meds) this week and ordered something for George's birthday. I did read some in my Mississippi book and spent some time with George watching a movie he wanted to watch. It took 3 nights though, lol.
I am behind on the Mind and Body thing. I think I have 3 days to do. There is only so much you can pack in a day with working all day, building a business on the side, and then still being married, lol. Luckily I do enjoy most of it. But the day runs out quickly.
I did listen to podcasts - some really good ones.
So we are here at Thursday already. Friday's sister. Tomorrow is Mom's birthday party. Looking forward to our plans there.
I did get my hair colored last night. It wasn't written on my list but it should have been.
Rogers Rabies shot is scheduled for Saturday.
We have also been working on our LCR Game night here at the house with friends on the 28th. We normally go all out for food. George says keep it simple. So we are having pizza as the meal. We are getting caulipower (the cauliflour pizza) for the ladies who are watching their wastelines. ;-) We are cooking the pizzas ourselves which will cut down on the cost.
Katy is in Waco with a friend that flew out to visit her. I feel so bad. Every time she calls I'm hugely busy at work - and yesterday I had lost something that I needed for a meeting. I was looking for that while she talked about Waco. I have had SO MANY projects/papers on my desk that things start to get lost in the shuffle and it gets frustrating. I was in a panic looking for something. So I was not at my best attention span. So I need to get back with her when I'm not at work spinning my chair around like Sybil from the Exorcist. No relation to our beloved Sybil that is my support unit- my angel that watches over the blog! ;-) I miss her of late this week.
It has truly been a frustrating couple of weeks - a downspout of a time for me. I had been so delightfully happy since March, when I dove into my nutrition plan and began to feel so much better. But then some unhappy spots of my life crept up from an external source. What once was an enjoyment turned into a big question mark and a big ball of negativity. Negativity is everywhere and it is hard to get away from it. I feel threatened by the situation - perhaps it is only me that is doing that to myself, but having been the butt of people's false perceptions before - feel like it's happening once more. I have a very deep sense of perception and can feel it. Sometimes one can sniff failure in the air. One can only do so much to help a situation or to help it help itself. And I don't even want to talk about it anymore. lol Life is too freaking short to be unhappy and dread things, you know? It really makes one think. I hate that I let things bother me. I am human. I like to see things work out. I hate it when things just don't work out.
Well, that's all for today. Always on the move, always the rush to the next thing. Lucky me. ;-)
Wednesday, July 18, 2018
I'm doing a frog entry since there are a lot of Frogs out back lately at night - croaking away. Especially when it rains. Also because there is a book called "Eat that Frog" about procrastination that sounds interesting that was brought up on our call last night. I don't have a procrastination issue though so I won't read it. I do have an overload issue so it means by default it takes more time to get around to doing something, which means that prioritization takes place. I'm a foundation person. A methodical approach to life. The groundwork has to be laid. I've been doing a lot of ground work. Now the real tough parts for me begin.
Anyway, we'll frog it up today in theme at least. So it is true that I have been in a bad mood. I've struggled to pull out of it. I am coming out of it. It started about a week ago when I was faced with a impossible set up that I knew was going to set me up for failure. The situation changed but I was still having residual traumatism (new word, I think) with it. Just afraid it will change back again I think. (Dramatic I know. It was dramatic for me!) Normally I am happy go lucky through tough spots, but this was just unacceptable to me and there is a LOT surrounding all of that that just adds up exponentially and brings back a lot of negative vibe. Then other negative things started happening on top of that. A person can only take so much negativity in one week before your negative (devil) self starts to say bad things about yourself. (I am no good, I can't do anything right, blah blah...wah wah...violin comes out and all. )
All I can say is:
Even God is having a tough time breaking through all this negativity, lol. Apparently! No disrespect to God, I'm mainly joking here. But the negativity is really thick so...I'm sure he's having to put some power to it. Thank goodness HE has been there for me. God gets the glory for answering my prayer. George has been making some suggestions to me that "It's time to do something different". I just don't think so yet. But he is the one that has to "deal with" me! lol
I did have a conference call with our team last night and it is so refreshing to be a part of group. I can't tell you how good it feels to be around positive people who help one another in this dog eat dog world of people that work against one another it seems. Just so refreshing to have an hour with these folks. Videos on and microphones on. Face to face. It was interactive. What a blessing. Usually we have been at the movies on Tuesday night so I was glad to participate this week instead of having to listen afterward. George is a willing partner and very supportive. I appreciate that. What I'm doing takes time and effort and is not easy. To talk with those who did the same and are successful b/c of it and are showing you that, is just priceless. The only way to lose is to quit.
So someone posted a comment about the shakes that I do and the sweetener that is in them. So I wanted to set the record straight. I did not approve the comment to post b/c it was not accurate. But I did want to let you know that the shakes are natural. Copied this down below from the website b/c it says it better than I can. There are no artificial sweeteners in the shake. There are scientists that work on these along with the nutritionists. And they also inspect a sample from each and every shipment of their raw goods before putting it into manufacture, so that they can make sure what they bought is exactly what is going in. I've been impressed with this Q C process. But if someone has their mind made up that something doesn't work for them. There is no changing it. If someone doesn't like something it is their prerogative. I can only share what is working for me and so many others. We put much WORSE things in our bodies when we eat burgers, fried foods, and even the oils in the salad dressings. If only we scrutinized that as good as we do the healthy things! Those types of fats is what causes all the heart problems. But we all love the taste of all these things. Including myself. I love our shakes. I cannot do without them. But shakes and nutrition is not something that everyone seeks out. And not everyone understands what a person does after they have been on them for a few days. So I get that and I won't force it on anyone, which is why I'm not giving the shake gift anymore now that I realize it. All I know is that I notice the 21.5 inches of fat which is equivalent to a tire tube being dropped off my body with our system. And I do not miss that fat! All that said, I would never force anyone NOR expect anyone to use something or eat something just because I wanted them to. I am disappointed because I really wanted Mom and other family members to feel as good as I do. But I will defend the shakes and false info. And don't want misinformation floating around family and friends that might have otherwise been helped but wasn't because of the misinformation. So here it is:
IsaLean Shake is a nutritious, balanced meal replacement clinically tested to promote effective, healthy weight loss and lean muscle building. It’s a low-glycemic shake with energy-fueling carbohydrates, good fats, vitamins and minerals, and 24 grams of high-quality protein.
- Superior branched-chain amino acid profile
- Active enzymes to help ease digestion
- Essential trace minerals
- Natural ingredients with no artificial flavors, colors, or sweeteners
- No trans fat
That said, I need to get to work. Running behind. Always too much going on. lol
Tuesday, July 17, 2018
This one looks nice doesn't it? I think I'd pull that chair down by the ocean side. This patio and sidewalk must connect to a bigger house and that is the guest cottage we see. I will take the guest cottage any day! ;-)
I'm pretty sure that is Maine right there with the Portland Headlight lighthouse off in the distance. Beautiful area. I would love to go back.
I hate to say it but I am still having some residue of "unhappy" right now. And I really don't have time time to diagnose it. But I think it is contributing to two things. Maybe three. I think when things just stack up against you enough that goes against your grain - you just say "enough". I can only have so many things going wrong in a time frame and then I shut down.
I know I like to be positive. I really do. But it seems like everything I try to do I get slapped in the face, shut down, or or something is wrong with it. Things I get so excited about either don't happen, don't come to fruition, or someone is negative about it in some fashion. At least some things are solved, but others are not.
So I'm having an "I'm throwing my hands up in the air day". One can't help but the way they feel. Some things I am grateful for, but today I just want to go back to bed and put my head under the covers. I don't want to face the day. I don't want to do what is on my schedule. I am behind already. I just want to catch up at work, catch up at home, sleep, drink coffee, read, forget life, and be done.
So cleanse day is done. I've had minimal amounts to eat and drink and did not sleep as well as planned last night. It was like I had caffeine but I had not. My brain didn't want to quit. I read several chapters in the Mississippi book which was relaxing. I needed some down time. Down from work, down from the business, down from family, down from friends. Even Maisy the dog, who won't leave my side, preferred to be with George instead of me. Go figure. At least when I did sleep I rested in God's arms and gave him the burdens of the day.
The cleanse day is easy. I'm not even hungry right now. But I am sleepy. And I'm not ready for the day. And then I saw my schedule today and I do not have time to do what is on it. But I guess I'm off to do it. It's on the schedule. In my head I had other plans for today's outlook but the outlook has it's own.
So in light of that, I go to get another cup of coffee and throw my hands up in the air. I'll robot through the day while things just keep stacking up.
Sorry for Debbie Downer today. I'm just being honest here. I did get some things ordered from Amazon last night. The website kept crashing. But I got my order in. I had to quit shopping though.
Also I am so bummed. I told Mom what her birthday gift was b/c she had tried the sample shake and didn't like that it had Stevia in it, a natural sweetener. I said it was unfortunate that she didn't like it -being that I had just bought her the shake blender set ($45) with two glasses and tops and the shake canister $40) all wrapped up for her birthday. Might as well tell her since I can't give it to her now. So now I will just keep it and get something else or just give her money. I had bought the several boxes of snacks as well and I don't know what's in it and don't want to have to look it up, but I'll just keep those too, and give her money and she can get what she wants I guess. Yet another bad decision on my part, another strike out of my excitement. I just wanted her to feel as good as I do healthwise. I don't feel too good moodwise right now. Can you tell? Not really like I can afford two gifts right now for Mom so I am bummed. So I won't be able to match the value of the first gift, but oh well. I think it was over $140 worth all together. Oh well, life's a ditch sometimes.
This is me. Life goes on. I just want something to freaking go right. It will. I just want to go get under the covers right now though. I'm just tired. And it's only Tuesday. I'm struggling here. I think I'm just around so much negativity in places that it is really impacting me. Dear Lord let the positive sink in please! I need good things to happen. I need to know that I matter. Can I do anything right and see results? Please? I need to know it, Lord. Or am I just hitting my dang head against a wall for no reason? Can I not accomplish anything and it be worthwhile?
Monday, July 16, 2018
Sometimes we like to have a little wind in our sails. As we can get where we are going. But then sometimes it is nice to just have peace and calm. And in my case - catch up!
So, also sometimes we are on a journey to some place special and changes come on around us - like the weather, wind and waves. We may have to adjust our sails a bit. We may have to tighten everything down and move things around. We may even have to fight with all we have to keep afloat - but unless we let it take us down - then we are still on our journey to where we want to go.
So while we may be fearful of the storm, the Maker is really at the helm. He keeps us afloat with our faith. And He calms the seas.
So it was good that I had the three days off. I have been pretty busy doing a lot of things around here that were important to me.
Yesterday we went to church and then came home. I wanted a salad out at Ruby's but did not ask for it. George fixed a Chinese dish for dinner - chicken over red rice with a bean sauce. It was good. My only problem with it was it was too salty. That was probably in the bean sauce in combination with any other sauces added.
I did the ironing and finished most of the laundry. I don't think we ever really finish with the laundry.
I read a bit and made my weekly focus worksheet. I had to laugh at last week's. I made the worksheet but not even half of what was on it was checked off. There is not enough time and nook and crannies to get it done. Even with an extra off day. So "Focus" is definitely a key word here.
Of course last week we were gone the first two nights of the week. This week no plans which makes things much easier.
Yesterday I cleaned my desk area and did my Mind and Body program. And also checked on my Global Celebration Tickets and downloaded the event app on my phone.
I listened to a podcast about Instagram while ironing and set my Instagram account up as a business account. An entrepreneur. I've always had an entrepreneur spirit! An unpaid Instagram account though at this point. It tried to create a facebook page for me. I didn't allow it to finish. Looks like it's an extra fee and that is where the paid part comes in. I'm not ready to commit to that yet. Close but not yet. It is set up though for what I need for now. I'm just a very methodical person and I'm setting up base camp and have been for a while. But things are at least starting to come together.
I'm going to start working on some very specific campaigns - planned out by month. I have no idea what I'm doing yet, but very excited about it.
Got Mom's birthday gifts wrapped.
Part of what I'll be doing this week:
____Following some of the successfuls on social media and do what they do.
____Check on the reservations for Friday and remind everyone
____Check on Mom
____Check on Katy from their trip
____Order George's birthday gifts
____Plan George's birthday outing
____Wrap up scheduling details for Celebration coming up in August
____Get Roger's Rabies Shot (Weekend)
____Work on the Sip and Shop set up for October (More Vendors)
____Mind and Body Program (Daily 10 minute program)
____Follow ups as scheduled
____Conference call Tuesday night with my team
____Proverbs - continue daily Bible Reading
____Vimeos and Podcasts on the commutes
____Watch Below Deck and favorite videos
____Give Tugie some more ear meds
____Order Flat Iron (I hate to spend the money)
____Extra household: Mop kitchen floor and clean a window :-(
____Shop for more tops
I think that is enough to keep me busy. My housework is suffering a bit due to my being on the computer all the time - learning, setting things up, following up. It takes a lot of time and while I love it, I feel a little guilty but I'm trying to spend time with George. We spent a lot of time together the first part of the week, so I kinda needed most of the rest of the week to do things on my list and have some downtime. He spends a lot of time in the yard and in cooking. I spend a lot of time in the laundry room, getting ready for the work week, and in changing sheets, vacuuming, restocking and ordering things. And keeping up with the calendar and the business.
Busy but happy. I love most all the things of my life except for a couple of things that *seemed* out of my control but I realize it actually is not. God and I have a plan.
What I love is that we are our own Brand in life as people. You are YOUR own Brand. Your skill set is YOURS. Never forget that.
Anyway, have a great Monday. It's cleanse day for me! I'm looking forward to it. I love the way it makes me feel. And I don't get hungry or miss food b/c I get something every hour on the hour just as I'm ready for it. It's so perfectly set up by the Scientists.
Sunday, July 15, 2018
George fixed a jambalaya this weekend. It had shrimp and sausage. It was over white rice Friday night. I had to give him that one. But, last night was over yellow grits. We liked that the best. It was really good.
Last night I learned how to Chrome Cast. I even got my blog up there at one point. But it was fun putting the web cams up there. This is the Destin Harbor - I watched the sun go down, dolphin tour boats come in, yachts, and sail boats of all kind. Then I switched the New York skyline and watched the sun shine against the sky scrapers and settle and the lights of the city came on. It was beautiful. Go check out these links of webcams in my side bar.
I love the Chrome Casting ability.
I had to post this. It's just an old log cabin camp site. Sometimes this has appeal. All in all I think it's just the escape that has the appeal but I do love nature as long as I'm not next to a spider or snake or in the raw elements for an extended period. I'll take a lush luxurious cabin any day, turn on the fire place, read, peek out at nature, sit on the porch swing, shoot the b b gun at tin cans, fix dinner over a fire or in a cast iron skillet. mmmm
Ok back to the real world.
First of all my laptop is about to drive me crazy. The touch pad is starting to go out. Grr. At that point I will be having to get another one. And I have already informed George that I want a Mac. This having to get one every 3 years is for the birds. I'll be typing along and then realize it has started typing in other places on the page. So I really have to watch it. It's weird.
Last night Roger was sleeping good. Love the boy. His tongue (missing teeth).
So it is thundering and raining this morning. I had hoped for a storm last night to cool us down. Maisy is scared and is under my feet under the desk. My goodness. I hadn't realized she was so afraid of storms but I think she was caught out in it - I know our neighbor rescued her from the intense rain from a storm about a year ago. I'm so glad she is ours.
Anyway, a good night's sleep. Changed the sheets and read from the Mississippi Solo book. That is just relaxing to me to read about adventures. The love stories and romance books that I once enjoyed and got into just seem to fall by the wayside. Phbbbttt on romance. lol
I rarely get to read but about 2 to 3 chapters a week. So it is always a slow go. We pack too much in our lives. But I love our life.
Anyway, I am going to have to stop here and get ready for church. I guess we get to ride in the rain and storms. Lucky us.
We will go by and see Granny today and I will come home and do some orders. I need to iron up a few things, clean up my desk area, do some more laundry, work on the kitchen some, mop the kitchen floor, and make my plan for next week.
I am still raw about a few things I'm dealing with. All I can say is that I do have some abilities within me that works in my favor any time something like this happens. And as previously said "God has control, therefore do I".
I struggle with my ability to be stubborn versus my ability to utilize my servant heart. I suppose both work in my favor. We always take steps toward our ultimate goals and that is what really matters in the end.
Bless their hearts. ;-)
Have a good Sunday!