Tuesday, September 25, 2018

Eerie Full Moon, The Joy Junkie, and The Tourist

Strange and eerie weather outside this morning.  And apparently a full moon.  And you can see the results of it too.  Chaos.  

Yesterday was ok for a Monday.  A bit interruptive and all schedules are off for the week - not much going like it's supposed to.  

Usually I would care. But I think it's easier just to let go and be a feather in the wind than to fight it.  Just tell me what time and where to show up.  Meanwhile as I work on other's agendas, my own desk piles up even higher and everyone sits and waits for their thing they need from me -  while I go knock my head up against a few walls for a while.   lol   At least my sense of humor is still hanging on. What on earth would I do without it.  

Have been spending my time this week in the Podcast of Joy Junkie.  I think some things are getting through.  Much of my life I've let what I thought others were thinking, and others motives, bother me, shape me, and take up my thoughts.  Being in control of my environment is a learned behavior that I developed naturally I think as I modeled behavior that I was familiar with - as I encountered life emerging from the nest.  It's protectiveness has done well for me in many cases and in some cases not.   I've learned I can indeed control a lot of my environment.  After all we do have some rights as an individual and our minds naturally make us do actions that lead toward the visions we have in creating the environment we want and need.  But what we can't control is what other people are thinking - well yeah in some respects you can sway people, but really it IS their own thinking.  You have no real power to be able to manage a person's thoughts completely.  Nor do I want to.  But what you can do is keep whatever it is you THINK they are thinking from harming you by establishing boundaries with yourself and with others. 

 This is a new way of thinking with me and it really helped me yesterday work through some things.  It amazes me that at 55 I'm still learning about myself and about people.  Being in HR and seeing so many negative sides to people for 30 years can really impact your view on society as a whole because your experience and background become a bank of experiences or statistics for various scenarios in which a large percent has been negative because of the job I do in handing negative issues.  I don't often get to see the good side of things as they happen.  I'm usually by nature of my position handling things on the negative side.  It kinda makes you jaded and gives you an extra sense about what people are thinking or what is happening.  And then our minds react to that.  Sometimes you are right and sometimes you are wrong.  But I think it's given me a shadow.  So I'm trying to view a new perspective on things.  

Recently I said something in a group of people and someone laughed and looked at another person, and I took it as they were making fun of me. I didn't act like I acknowledged it.  Maybe they were and maybe the weren't making fun of me.  Maybe their timing was off and they were laughing at something I totally missed.   I feel 95% right though as there did not appear to be any other thing that occurred that they would be laughing about.  I brought it up to George later and he criticized me for thinking that. He said I didn't know what they were thinking and that was crazy to think such a thing.  I kinda shut down.  It made me mad.  I'm trying to figure out why.  I wanted to discuss with George my feelings about it and see what he thought.  I was seeking to be consoled.  I was seeking strength.  But I was scolded instead and called crazy.  

I've been replaying all this in the last day trying to figure out the whole lot of it.  But I'm proud to say that it really doesn't matter what anyone thinks.  It's hurtful when you THINK someone is making fun of you.  It's hurtful when you go to talk to someone and they reprimand you instead.  I am then reminded why I often don't talk anymore.  Sometimes it's easier to just put up walls and be by yourself.  You seek help and basically get verbally slapped in the face for asking.  If you were to ask George though he'll tell you a different version.  He'll think he said nothing wrong.  He'll think I'm the problem. I don't know how fix things like this so I just shut down.  I told him "this is why I never open up to you".  

The Joy Junkie, although very foul mouthed at times, seems to have a good perspective on "being your best self" as it goes with relationships with others.  I have a hard time sometimes being able to communicate with those that are critical, brazen, crass, and a know it all, and especially people that want to tell me what it is that I am thinking, or that think they know what my motives are when they don't even have a clue.  I tend to be overwhelmed with that and shut down.  Not that George is all those things.  But I know some folk who are.  You know that feeling?  When your brain is trying to analyze what is happening in a conversation and it's too much to internalize and so you just SHUT DOWN?  I'm not sure what the process is that happens that makes you shut down but I think it's too many things at once trying to be analyzed and too many emotions wrapped around it.  You feel anger, confusion, and jumbled and so much so you just have to shut down or walk away.

But the Joy Junkie helps you establish some boundaries so that you can get what you need from others and stop the behaviors that you do not want.  I need to get good at delivering the message.  The tone needs to comes across better.  She suggested something like this: 

Tell the other person when you have a problem - not to try to fix the person or the problem but let them know what you need from them.  Or tell  your spouse "when I have a problem I need you to say ' How can I help you with this situation?' and I'll let you know what I need from you."  In other words, don't try to fix it, I may just need you to listen until I ask your opinion.  

Me:  Blah Blah Blah situation.  Pain, hurt feelings, blah blah. 
Other person:  How can I help you in this situation? 
Me:  I just need to vent. 
Other Person:  Ok vent away.  

Or you might say 
Me:  I just need your opinion on the matter

Me:  Tell me how to handle this person 

Me:  Tell me what I did wrong in this situation.  

Then everyone is receptive and on board with what needs to be said and received. 
Does that make sense?  If I'm asking for a critique on my thinking, I'll be ready to receive it.  

So I probably need to lay a few communication boundaries with George.  He may need to lay a few with me.  But there is a way to say it or we'll both shut down.  We actually DID both shut down recently over this.  I'm still dealing with it.  I'm still trying to verbalize what the actual conversation of laying the boundary looks like.  But I don't take criticism very well.  He will say he wasn't criticizing me but giving me advice.  So I should probably say "no advice given unless I ask for it".   

He'll probably not like me giving him a boundary, but we all have needs and rights and know how we need to be treated and if that is the way we need to communicate fairly to have a decent conversation, then it's kinda necessary.  I'm still very green on all this stuff.  Sometimes it seems likes its selfish to have a boundary.  But it's been capped off as "self-care" so that others thoughts and actions do not harm you.  And we can keep ourselves from being negative and having negative thoughts, and have our own thoughts heard and not silenced.  

And that is enough psycho babble for the day.  I know just enough to  be dangerous at this point.  But I'm really enjoying the learning on it.

And here is the Kate Bug - Spirit week still going on.  She is dressed as a tourist today.  I thought she was representing Alfred Hitchcock movie though.  Til I realized that would not be appropriate for 1st grade.  lol 

Anyway, off to work and being a feather in the wind.  I keep thinking I'm Jonah today.  I think I have to go to Ninevah.  If I don't go I'll be eaten by a whale.  So off I go.

Coming off of a cleanse day today...look out!  ;-) 

Monday, September 24, 2018

Church and a Quick Trip Home

Well we went to church yesterday.  We took cheese and crackers and summer sausage slices.  All dishes were eaten clean with the exception of a few crackers.  There was a good spread yesterday!  

Our friends Kathy and Richard had an emergency in the family and had to leave.  Had me really worried, but I think everything will be fine.  Our class was talking on worrying when that happened during class and I began worrying again - not that you could do anything about it but I was hoping everything was fine and began visiting various scenarios of awful til finally we heard what was wrong and all looked like it would be fine as another family member had been ill suddenly but taken care of.  

So we came home and changed, took dogs out and George started watching the Titans game while I got ready to go. I was wondering if I'd be able to tear him away. But he listened in the car.  I drove b/c I like the way I drive in the rain.  The day before, George drove too fast for me in the rain.  He usually doesn't drive fast in the rain but for some reason he did Saturday and it hasn't rained in a while on oily pavement is not always a good thing.  So I drove to Columbia since he scared me the day before.  He drove back though.  It wasn't raining as much. ;-) 

So we arrived at 2:00 as promised and sat around and talked and watched Life Time channel, Mom's favorite channel.  

Here's Coco - my Aunt Martha's dog.  Isn't she sweet?  

I asked what our eating schedule was.  I wasn't sure if it was 5 or 7 or just whenever everyone got hungry.  I didn't know what the plan was.  So she called my sister since she was meeting us.  And Mom decided that we would eat right then.  So we left and went to the Mexican restaurant, El Fuentez.  Here is Uncle Ken and Aunt Martha.   We did not take the dogs this trip b/c we thought it would be too much to have 5 dogs in one room and leave them.  Maisy gets kinda picky and barks and sometimes does not get along with others well, so we decided if we were going out to leave them home.  It sure made the trip easier it seemed. 

And Mom.  I love all the fancy lighting at this place.  

I had them take our picture.  

Uncle Ken with Coco. 

All piled up in the living room.  

Uncle Ken was really explaining something below.  But I was taking a pic of Fancy, Mom's dog.  

We went home after stopping to taste craft Beer and Columbia's brewery, Asgard Brewery.  We have been wanting to try it.  So since we didn't have the doggies we decided it was a good time to try it. 

Aunt Martha bought some essential oils from me.  As did George yesterday.  lol He agreed to let me enroll him too.  I decided to order the complete Experience pak with the diffuser and all.  Aunt Martha bought that one too.  I'm excited!  

Here is Miss Maisy girl at bed time.  She loves me so and it struck me how lucky I am to have a doggie that thinks so much of me.  Lord knows it's hard to find people that do. 

Despite our busy-ness, I'm about to cycle again.  And I was able to get the Essential Oil pack with my bonuses so far.  At least I was able to get all set up this weekend.  Having the essential oil kit will help me to be able to sell it.  You can use some of it orally, some of it with the coconut oil carrier with your skin, and then diffuse it.  So I'm very excited to get mine in. 

Then on the way home friend Lisa J texted that they would not be going to NYKO in Phoenix in January.  I was crushed.  I'm undecided now about myself.  I just don't know.  I don't really want to go by myself.  We'll see.  It's such good information.  And I loved the experience last time.  I hate to miss it.  But we'll see.

Anyway, I didn't really get much of a chance to breathe and plan for the week on this busy weekend.  I didn't really get my day to get things done at home.   But, when we got home I vacuumed at least so I would not be in a bad mood this morning.  I didn't have time last weekend so I was determined.  I did more laundry this morning.

So it's cleanse day today!  Washing away the sins of the weekend.  I really wasn't too bad. I had a few cheats but the other meals of the day were low cal, and a bit of protein.  So I was held over good.

Ya'll have a fab Monday.  I'm going for more coffee.  Yes you can have coffee on a cleanse day.

Oh and we prayed for George's job situation in class, prompted by me.  George did not seem to think he needed prayer - well he said God already had it.  So I told them they could pray for me instead if he didn't need prayer - every one laughed.  See I can be funny when I want to be.  lol  Anyway on the way to Columbia an old friend/coworker from Gibson that works somewhere else now asked George if he would be willing to work for their company (to interview) but he'd have to travel to Minnesota once per month.  He'll check into today.  He would work from home the rest of the time.
It's a purchasing position.

Anyway, we'll see what happens with that.  He'll check into it.  The mine seems to not want to talk about bringing him on any more but they say they want to keep him as long as they can.  It's not really fair to him (nor us) to not allow him to have benefits and vacation time and holiday time.  We haven't had a vacation together in forever.  I know we'll get one at Thanksgiving.  And I'm probably just going to start planning one anyway for next year because at what point do you say enough of this temp stuff?   I'm ready to plan our life.  lol  We can't do anything for having to wait and see, wait and see, wait and see.

Anyway, I better get to my permanent job before I lose mine too.

Sunday, September 23, 2018

Roger Dog, A Busy Saturday, Rain Arrived, and a Quick Bargain Hunt

Busy little day yesterday.  But enjoyed what little time we had home.  You know I love being home about as well as going places.  I did the blog and a couple of loads of laundry, packed the cleaning pack for Monday and my snack bag/drink bag of goodies for the week with my IsaGoodies. 

 I also worked at my desk some as I had to figure out my IsaWallet.  I had to activate the card, which I thought I had done.  I think I activated my IsagenixWallet account instead.  You have to activate both and then I tried to use the userID of my Isagenix account to go with it instead of another one I was supposed to use - so I had confused myself as I thought it was all connected.  It kinda is but has a separate signon.  All squared away now. I decided that I would spend it back into the business and what I decided to do for now that would be the most beneficial is to buy the complete set of essential oils and get the diffuser that comes with the set.  Then I can have it to use and to show and I will have it by the party time.  Lisa reminded me of a grand idea.  I will go in and have George as a new customer and he will order the oils!  ;-)  I get more credit that way.  Woo Hoo!   So I'll do that today.  I think I get free shipping with a code too if I do it today.

Roger says hello.  He enjoyed a lazy cloudy sun room morning.  I almost shut him up in the room b/c I didn't realize he was up there.  Bless his heart.  Once it got close to noon it was a bit hot in there since the rain did not come til later.

Roger is a sweet heart of a cuddle button.  I like to hug him when I need a hug myself.  Because he'll let ya.  He is not usually a lap dog though but he will let you if you need one. 

We went to the store around Noon at Publix and bought grits and cheese so George could make his cheese grits for a pot luck dinner.  We also bought what we needed for the cheese and summer sausage and cracker tray we are taking to church. 

Then we went back and I did some ironing and actually I think that is when I worked on the IsaWallet thing.  I worked in the house some, but not as much as I'd have liked. 

We left around 5 and drove in some pretty heavy rain and went to Nashville and turned north to Hendersonville TN and we got there way too early so we stopped and shopped at a Bargain Hunt.  Just as I got into it, we had to leave.  But not before I bought a $20 black heavy wool pant coat for winter.  It's perfect for what I need.  I did not have a short heavy coat for really cold winter days.  We don't have too many but this will be perfect for that.  It looks really nice.  

Here the skies unleashed on us as we headed out yesterday.  

I didn't get any pics of our friend's shower.  We just all enjoyed ourselves.  The pot luck was fabulous.  

I saw my friend that signed up for our nutrition system there, and she said she had lost 7 lbs already.  So proud of her for doing this.  She feels great and said that she was able to do so much more yesterday than if she had not been on the system.  I love hearing that and it makes me feel so happy to be able to have others get the nutrition and see for themselves what it does.  Our food supplies are not adequate out there and our bodies are going into all kinds of autoimmune diseases because we do not get what we need and crave.  I'm just so excited.  People think it's just another shake company but it's real natural ingredients you are putting in your body.  No one believes it really til they experience it.  And that is ok.  Everyone has to do what they want and I don't hold any hard feelings at all.  I just know what I know and when people are ready, like I was, they will do and see!  

Anyway that made me feel so good to hear her good news.  Her body began reacting immediately.  

Speaking of - I need to get my make up on so we can head out to church this morning.  Another big day planned ahead with family.  Looking forward to seeing my Aunt and Uncle from Jacksonville!  

Saturday, September 22, 2018

Anniversary Continues with BORNS concert, and Seafood Dinner at Fin and Pearl

Friday was a great day - went by fast.  I had this for lunch and it was really good!  Needed a little more protein.

Just a pic of the Gulch area.  We ate at Fin and Pearl.  I was thinking the prices were reasonable but I must have been looking at the lunch menu.  Everything I wanted had a price tag.  Here was the place below coming around the corner from where we parked.   

Fin and Pearl, 12th Ave, Nashville

Fresh Ceviche, Fin and Pearl, Nashville
 George got the Ceviche Salad and I had the one below.
Crab, avacdo, mango salad with dijon mustard vinaigrette dressing
 Strangely a stray shrimp cocktail made its way to our table with confidence and hurried off.  lol  I said to George "Did you order that?"  He said "no we didn't order one? But we'll let that be our anniversary present."  A manager soon came over.  Not sure if he noticed our confusion or if someone had discovered the shrimp cocktail delivered to our table.  I told the manager that we wanted him to know that someone brought us that but we didn't order it - we like it but just wanted them to know.  George said "how did you all know it was our anniversary?"  He started to take it but said "well it's already been set on your table so you can keep it if you like shrimp cocktail and we typically do a free dessert for anniversary.  So you will get that too."  Swwwweeeeet.

Shrimp Cocktail, with a very special cocktail sauce, Fin and Pearl, Nashville
 I got the scallops dish with potato cakes and Brussels sprouts.
Scallops, potato cakes and brussel sprouts, Fin and Pearl, Nashville
 The waiter, who looked like Cody, our son in law, lol...suggested either the peanut butter cheesecake or the Angel Fish Cake.  We got the Angel Fish.
Angel Fish cake, Fin and Pearl, Nashville, TN
 The bill was brought inside this book.  Is that not cool?  lol

Sign inside the restaurant.  

George photo bombing the pic. 

Twin Shadow opened for the Borns concert we went to. 

They had a good sound.

I took this between sets, so many were getting refreshments.  But there was a packed house inside the Ryman in Nashville. 

Ryman Auditorium, Nashville

Interesting that he had qualities of Elton John (even played one of his songs).  He had qualities of Mick Jagger, Elton John, David Bowie, and Michael Jackson.  I looked at his Concert info on one website (perhaps Stubhub) and his tickets were sold out along the West coast.  

I took these below mainly to show the fans.  Those below and all around knew the words to most every song.  George and I were really impressed.  So was Borns.  He said he must be dreaming to play at the Ryman.  And he teasingly told the audience it was a little intimidating singing with such good harmonies out there.  

It was a very colorful, entertaining concert.  Very different from what we normally go to.  I loved it.  I think George enjoyed it to from a musical appreciation side.  I will say that my favorite was the Elton John he did and I hate to say it, but he did a better job than Elton - lol  It sounded sooooooooo good.  If Elton has not been to his concert - he should go.  He would love him.  I bet he has! 

Anyway, fun evening and we slept until six something.  

Better get on with my day.  I don't have a lot of time this weekend.  Much going on.  We have a couples wedding shower tonight, church in the morning and we are taking food.  We will come home, take the dogs out, change, and then head to Columbia to eat with Mom and my Aunt Martha and Uncle Ken.  And then back home.  Then work on Monday.  Again..  It all goes by fast. 

I obtained another customer yesterday too.  A coworker was interested so I enrolled her at lunch time.  She was excited and I was too!  My friend Lisa said I only needed one more person to enroll and I get free vitamins.  ;-)  Cool. 

Well I think the to do list is all the normal Saturday doings - getting ready for the next work week, cleaning and such.  I do need to open my IsaWallet card and figure out what I do next.  I need to get our Hot Springs hotel booked.  Need to do a lot of things.  

But it's been a great week.  A lot of fun.  A great anniversary week.  And now time to focus on the business a bit this upcoming week as much as I can.  Fitting it into nooks and crannies and it is literally paying off.  

Well ya'll be good!  Off to see what all I can get done and the first of that is to get some more coffee!  George made it this morning! He got up before me and that is rare.  He took dogs out and fed them and made coffee!  

Have a good one!

Friday, September 21, 2018

PSP and Computer Woes, Halibut Fish, Pirate Katy and Other Happenings

Well, I ended up working on the business a bit yesterday morning instead of blogging.  I felt pushed to get it done instead of waiting til I really had time.  I'm not sure that was the best decision.  However, it's done. When I got on the computer to do it I was going to make a graphic for it "real quick" for my Shopping Event invites but apparently my PSP program changed.  I couldn't get it to do what it normally would do.  It didn't look right, didn't feel right, and then the text tool was different.  Then it froze and I completely lost what had been finally an hour's worth of work.  So I just found a pic on line and went with that.  

And to add to the frustration apparently Chrome had also done an update and then it was slow and different.  This was for the Come and Go Shopping event in Oct at my house.  We've invited almost 200 people.  If everyone comes we are in trouble.  lol  But trust me, they won't.  

So needless to say, I did not get a blog entry done yesterday.  Why I try out new projects before work is beyond me.  I felt pressured so I did it and should have waited and gone with my original plan to do graphic last night at my leisure and then post on weekend.  But it's done.   It does not meet my look of "fall" I wanted nor does it have a French look to it.  But it's shopping themed so what I picked "will do". 

Wednesday night we were on the phone with a friend that needed us regarding a situation.  And then George set into cooking this fabulous fish dish.  Wouldn't that be a cool restaurant name The Fish Dish?  lol  Anyway George had bought this seafood pak a while back from Alaska.  A pretty pricey pak but oh so awesome.  He fixed the Halibut from it.  I had bought some panko crumbs made out of rice instead of bread and requested he do that.  He pan fried it in olive oil/butter.  We had garlic peas and a red rice with it. 


And it was served on our plastic fish plates.  lol

Work has gone well this week.  Everyone has been in meetings and out of town so it's been quiet where we could get a few things done. Mainly I think b/c I had two hours back into my week since I myself did NOT go to any meetings.  So I had time to do the Attendance Policy since there were no one to have meetings with and fewer people calling me, fewer with questions, and less interruptions.  Yay.  I love it when I can get in a zone and get stuff done!  Usually it just piles up over yesterday's and the day before and you have to peel it like an onion back down again on some random day when everyone else is busy so you can get caught up.  Loved it.

And, being in the zone requires that you are hydrated, have a snack, vitamins, stress formula, and vities and good music in your ear.  I'm still trying to determine if the Brain Boost is working.  I'll have to get back to you on that one.  You are supposed to take 3 a day but I'm not doing that.  I am not sure that too many supplements can be a good thing?   I don't want to over do it. So I started with one.    So far the e-shot works much better for me for a quick pick me up and clarity. 

Got my strawberry shake in.  I had it for breakfast yesterday at my desk.  Made it thick like ice cream. 

Katy had Pirate Day at school - in her first grade class.  Doesn't she make a cute pirate? Scoot over Johnny Depp.

Love it.

So the past two nights we have watched movies.  We have watched:  Snatched with Goldie Hawn and Vanishing Point.  It's been nice to have some "mind clearing" movies and it has been good for my psyche after having some intensely packed to do lists lately across the board.

I cycled again yesterday making even more $ while I slept.  ;-)  My friend Lisa sold a pak and it's on the leg of hers that I'm on and it paid me too!  This comp plan is so awesome.  I have taken some time out lately though to focus on the house and time with George during our Anniversary night.  We have another night tonight with special plans.

My Aunt and Uncle have arrived from Jacksonville, surprising Mom.  They will be up for a few days.  We will get to see them.  We will go down on Sunday afternoon after church.  We are taking food that day so we have to be there but will go down later.

We will not be taking the rented RV to Thanksgiving - but will drive and be staying in Hot Springs, AK while coming through each way at the half point going and coming from TX.  I had forgotten that George said his Dad was born there.  So George is excited to see the place.  This will break up the trip only making us do 6 hours of drive time per day - well maybe more like 7.  We can rest for a portion of the day and enjoy ourselves. I need to book this over the weekend.  So it's on my to do list. I finally turned in my vacation for that week.  OH someone asked about the dogs.  Tugie will be staying with Mom.  She is just going to be uncomfortable with the long drive.  And so will I with her.  So she will stay with Mom but Maisy and Roger are going with us. Had we done the RV she would have gone.  As I could make her a bed on the floor.  I don't think she would do well in the seat or the floor board of the car. 

I guess I need to get off of here and get ready for work.  Always rushing around - which is why I stopped to smell the roses this week a bit during our Anniversary week. Life is too short to not live a little toward your dreams and enjoy the journey along the way. All work and no play, make Sonya be in a moody way.  All work and some play make Sonya be cheerful along the way.  ;-)