Yesterday was surprisingly quite the busy day and nothing on MY "planned" day actually happened. Oh well. The day sped by.
Went to lunch at Logan's which has the best grilled chicken salad. Oh my word, I'll be back for that one.
George and I had beans and corn bread for dinner and watched a Revenge show. I played Candy Crush and chilled during the evening. The game had infinity play time - instead of the 5 lives. And it came with rewards. So I played and played and played. Went up 2 levels. I should have been doing laundry but a gal needs some goof off time every now and then.
I've been considering in the last day or two, taking a break from the blog. I love my network of blog readers - some of us all have been together for a long time, but the wrong people are reading for the wrong reasons, I believe, and that really makes me uncomfortable. If I was assured that they were reading b/c of the right reasons, I'd be more likely to be grateful for their presence, but it's unlikely they are reading for pleasure. It's a public blog so you really can't call it spying. I guess people think I don't know they read it. But when you have tracking tools it's pretty easy. I guess that makes for a little spy work of my own. There are maps and you can even tell the device and location and the IP codes. In a way it's been amusing and even entertaining. But really I want to just live my life and blog about it. I'm not crossing over into anything illegal or unprofessional. I talk about my feelings but never the details. Those closely involved might be able to guess what I'm talking about but even they don't know for sure. I'm starting to feel like a fish bowl. lol And I just want to live my life without being cyber stalked by folks with wrong intentions. I really think there are those reading that are just waiting for me to screw up and say something I shouldn't. Isn't it awful that people do that? They prey on the hopeful demise of another. Our society is so screwed. People love drama. And just sit around like cats behind trees waiting to pounce on any little wrong thing or dirt they can find on a person.
However I'm recalling Sunday's sermon, "Live Like You are Loved" by Steve Flatt. I've thought about it all week. Live, Play, and Work like you are loved.
We should not live in a prison of condemnation. Which is:
*If I do enough, God will love me, and save me eternally (we are saved by grace and through an act of love we will want to do things for the glory of God, but salvation is not based on how much we do- b/c we could never do enough to earn what he did for us - died for our sins.)
*God is punishing when bad things happen (however, I do believe that God punishes b/c he did it all through the old testament, but I don't believe that all bad things are punishments but b/c the devil lives in this world)
*Fear (Nothing separates us from the love of God.) God's love is 4 dimensional: wide, long, high, and deep).
We should have a spirit of confidence.
Gods love is:
*Convenantal (his covenant) not Contractual
*Supersedes Adversity (including spiritual warfare)
*Creates a whole new motivation. (God's grace makes you want to work hard)
He told a story of a boy that was about to be eaten by a gator and the Mom struggled with her boy to get the boy from the gator as the gator had his legs. Later someone asked the boy who survived to show them his scars. They were big. But he said those are not the important scars - but he showed them the fingernail scars on his arms where his Mom had struggled to hold on to him.
Then Steve Flatt laughed and said "now I don't know of that story is true or not" (everyone laughed) but it made the point.
God's love for us is very real. He will bear the scars of our adversity. And already has. So the sermon Sunday was good for me all week long. I like to take notes so I can remember it later.
So, I just feel like it's been a weird, and hard October and parts of November. I have had feelings of uncertainty, fear, doubt, and sadness and anger - kindof all balled up into one. I DO FEEL that the devil has tried to throw his fiery darts. I think that he works through other people to try to get to us and destroy us and any good things we are doing. Oh the irony of some things.
However, I've tried to put on the Armor of God and hold up my shield of faith, to get my mind in the right place:
The full quote as outlined in the King James Bible, is from Apostle Paul's letter to the Ephesians 6:10-18: (10) Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. (11) Put on the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. (12) For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. (13) Wherefore take unto you the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. (14) Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; (15) And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; (16) Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. (17) And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: (18) Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints; 
I've also focused on the fruits of the spirit. When I had a negative feeling about someone, or something - I've tried to pray for that person (s). But will admit that I haven't done that always.
I can be better about that. But the fruits of the spirit are ways that we should be. So this week I've prayed for the Spirit to be in me to have the following:
I have tried to think upon good things when my mind starts to turn negative. Thank goodness for the ability to remember some scripture when you need it. It's very calming.
And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. 8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right,whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable — if anything is excellent or praiseworthy — think on these things. 9Whatever you have learned and received and heard from me, and seen in me, put these things into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.…
And therefore God provides peace. So in light of ALL that, I have found this week to be more peaceful. And will continue to blog forth as well. I'm going to live my life and continue to share with my blog buds and whoever else will read. You won't get the whole story but you will get a lot of it. I will probably be a bit more guarded with my feelings though. I think for a while people will just have to wonder how I feel, due to the trolls. Some are on the private blog and you will see it there. Those that are longer termed blog readers from the past whom I love and trust.
It takes more than our own thinking and processing to protect ourselves in this world and to lead us. We can't expect to do it alone. Those that do not have God in their lives, I don't see how they do it. Of course the devil probably leaves them alone as he knows as unbelievers - he already has them in his snare. The devil always goes after those that love the Lord and tries to wreck any and all good they do, and tries to discourage. I truly believe that is what has been happening. I think since we've been going to church, the devil has tried to weasel his way into so many things trying to bring me down.
Well pbthhhhhhh on that you old two horned, pitch forked, tootie hole! God loves me and his love is 4 dimensional and even through death, you cannot keep God's love from me!
Well, anyway, we have a lot planned for today. And I'm elated that it is Saturday and I'm so glad I shared the sermon with you all. There is nothing like a good sermon to share with stalkers too - nothing will make them run quicker than sitting through a good ole Sunday Sermon. More of those to come. Stick around, the singing starts soon.
lol, Well, anyway, better get off to it.
Oh and yesterday's entry was all in the humor as well. I think some took it that I was not thankful for what I had or thought I was being ungrateful. The parody on the Janice Joplin tune was all in fun and I had hoped you all would find it funny as I inserted my own heart's desires into her song.
George thought it was funny and cute. Friends did too. I've always been pretty good at writing poems. Had thought about writing songs in the early days since I live in Nashville but already had/have too many hobbies and things to do. Life never took me in that direction (yet anyways). ;-)
Dogs get trimmed today and we will be Christmas shopping. Then we get the dogs and then we spend time with my SIL and BIL going through family photos. Or will at least attempt to.
Ya'll have a good one if you made it down this far past the sermon. So...
LIVE LIKE YOU ARE LOVED! Because YOU ARE!