Praise the Lord, for Friday's. My brain is done from the worries of the week and I'm frankly ready to move on into some personal time.
Yes, I know from yesterday's comments you all think I need to lighten up and not be so hard on myself about life. It's easier said than done. When you have a passion or a vision and half of it is sliced away, you don't really just "get over it" so easily. With time one can change plans, change a vision, and realign and it is an adjustment til you do. But when one thing changes it creates a domino effect or impact - and so even if you try to forget "said thing" that occurred or is occurring - it still comes up and slaps you in the face. So, trying to ignore it doesn't work very well. Also when sitting down to blog with coffee in your quiet time at 5 a.m. in the morning, feelings and moods come to surface. It's honesty time with the world and yourself and it just bubbles up. I am not at peace and will not be until it is resolved one way or the other. That is just who I am. I have to be working toward something worth while or it's all just meaningless. I'm not a person that can go forward without meaning. Just not.
I'm really confused right now about a lot of things. This whole thing is making me just look at a lot of different things. So perhaps it's a good thing after all. I know it drives ya'll crazy me not going into detail about what the heck fire I'm talking about. But there is just a something bothering me big time. I am resilient and I will figure out the flow of things - even if it is backward. I just have to decide if I'm happy with backward. I can tell you, probably NOT.
Anyway enough cryptic unhappy talk. Sorry to do that to you, but I'm just me. And I'm troubled over an issue and probably will be til it's resolved. One way or THE OTHER.
So....yay...Friday. Two days of rest and rejuvy and all that goes with that. Much needed time off. Things are a calling at home.
We had a birthday for Granny Jan last night at the assisted living. I will try to get pics posted. I saw my pics that my sister in law took and I just look so fat in that picture. I have to lose weight. It's just so hard. But I have to. I felt I looked horrible. The only way I have ever lost weight of any significance was to not eat breakfast. I know that you are supposed to eat breakfast. But I think there is just something about my body type and the fact that we eat so late at night. So I think that I'm really still full for a long time. I think perhaps if I try not eating breakfast and just drinking liquids and seeing if I can burn off some calories til lunch and get the metabolism all going. And that will make me eat a good lunch - heck I usually do anyway. Then at dinner maybe I can not have 2nd's. Maybe we can eat a little bit lighter fare. It's worth a shot. That is how I lost weight after Katy was born.
It doesn't help that we are such foodie types. I can do this. Right? Even if it's at the holidays? Right. :-O
Ok well, it's Friday and I'm really happy about that. We have storms coming and I'm hoping I won't have to drive in that. We'll see.
Anyway ya'll take care and have a good weekend. I'm ok. All will be fine. One way or another. Like water, I will find my path of movement. ;-) I will never just sit still and let be!
It's all good.