I was 20 minutes early at the computer this morning and was excited to be early. However, the internet was down so there was 20 minutes of precious morning time that was unproductive. I am probably not far away from getting a new laptop. I may have to start using George's computer b/c I really don't want to have to go buy one. The next one will be a Mac - I think. I'm tired of going through a laptop every 3 years. A mac lasts forever right? lol I keep hearing how awesome they are. However, I've not had a lot of trouble with this one until the touch pad and keyboard starting acting up.
So yesterday, George did not want to go to church so he could get several things done at home. I was fine with that and not having to get ready and go out so early as we'd had to do the day before.
Every day that passes, I am sure that we will get a call about Granny. So the call did not come. It has been 9 days without food or water. My heart just hurts. She was resting yesterday when George went to see her. She was not awake. Her breathing was shallow.
As the days press on, I struggle fighting the moments of anxiety that work, vacation, and funeral will clash and be trying to all happen at once. But when that flash of anxiety occurs I ask myself why it is that I'm anxious? Well, because I really want to be there for my family with Granny. I really want to be there for work with all that is happening, I really want to be there for this two to three day vacation thing that is paid for. But I keep saying that God is in control and He will be in charge of the timing. It will be what it will be and we will figure out the rest. I think that when you are a planner, and like to have things set and ready - it's hard to keep from being a bit anxious.
So what am I afraid of? What is making me try to be so anxious? Well, we know how it can be at work when things don't go like others want it to - if you are not there to do xyz and abc time frame. And we know how bad it makes one feel if you can't make a vacation that partly someone has paid for. And the one thing that absolutely I don't want to happen is not being there for family. I will make that happen. So it's the other two that will lose out. Anyway I am not so anxious - but my normal psyche is trying to tell me to be. I keep just praying and it goes away. I'd be anxious w/o this going on anyway as so much is going on at work over and above the norm. So I keep having to give that over to God b/c my strength alone is not big enough for that one. I did see a Superman t- shirt this weekend that I almost bought so I could have an S on my chest, but I'll pass. God gets to wear the t-shirt. Not me. Any success that comes out of a mess so big that is beyond your control in life - has to come from God. lol
So I have read in Proverbs this morning.
A soft answer turns away wrath but a harsh word stirs up anger. Proverbs 15:1
A gentle tongue is a tree of life but perverseness in it breaks the spirit. Proverbs 15:4
(If you find stray letters inserted in words or letters missing from words, it's b/c my keyboard keeps skipping me around. Between that and the touchpad, this thing is getting hard to use. I don't always have time to proof my work til later. So forgive.)
A glad heart makes a cheerful face, but by sorrow of the heart the spirit is crushed. Proverbs 15: 13
A hot-tempered man stirs up strife but he who is slow to anger quiets contention. Proverbs 15: 18
The heart of the righteous ponders how to answer, but the mouth of the wicked pours out evil things. Proverbs 15:18
Had a mango peach shake yesterday. It was heavenly. I can see why it was so popular. The good news is that it is a permanent flavor now.
I've had to reorganize my product shelf in the laundry room. I needed more space as my shake flavors increase. I think the peach is my favorite, then the chocolate one - then the rest are about the same to me. I sometimes add peanut butter to vanilla or the chocolate - or I might add fruit to have an added or varied flavor. It does add calories if you add things. But I don't worry about a few frozen berries here and there.
We were bad and had pizza last night as we had one that was unbaked (not frozen) that needed to be fixed. So I was sad, yet happy, lol.
I have cleanse day today and need it.
I've been doing sit ups at night and leg lifts - in bed - but it still works. I need to exercise more but it remains hard to fit in the schedule unless we make a scheduled activity of it. You know I'm not willing to give up the blog. It's too dark anyway to walk at this time. After work there is no time - especially now with trying to do so much with the new business, or running errands and such.
Wow, Wed it will be Aug 1. I'm glad for July to almost be over. I hate the roads will be filled with school traffic again making it hard to get to work w/o having to fight with the traffic over a little pavement. July can be a hot month but Aug can be more humid and even hotter. So I've never been too fond of August either - school used to be kindof exciting though. Getting into a new routine and all. I still get excited looking at school supplies and find myself over there myself. I bought some pens.
But the first of the month brings a lot of things that I have to do at work - which I do in cycles every month. So - yeah all that will be trying to happen and of course no time to do it in b/c the earth is falling apart and about to swallow us up. lol
I think the earth has been cracking for some time truth be known.
Well, I need to go and get ready - but will do my mind and body program this morning.
Here is a pic of Maisy from last night.