Tuesday, August 28, 2018

Earring Hoopla In God's Hands Now and I'm Going Blonde!


So above is the Big South Fork Overlook.  It has been a long time since we've been up there to stay at a log cabin.  I'm about ready to have a weekend away and have been thinking about it.  I'd really rather rent an RV though but - in all likelihood would want more of a 3 day trip to rent an RV and his job situation is not supporting of that.  Even a weekend in a cabin usually calls for a 3 day stay as where we'd want to go is about 3 to 4 or 5 hours away.   Butt I'd be game for a weekend away in the mountains, a book read on the swing, a cook out and hot tub on a cool night looking up at the stars.

So I had a different entry planned but I saw your comments over yesterday and I will say that I had the girls pray over the earring thing and a few others things as well.  I'm trying to let it go, but yet it's still gonna be in the back of my mind for a very long time.  A long time ago I would be a heaping mess over it.  At least at this point, I'm not.  So that is good.  It's just like a thorn that bothers you. 

One hopes things are fine but it would be the same if a stray cuff link or other man thing found in the dryer or laundry for him. He would have no alternative but to wonder about it.  George is not being blamed or given a hard time over it. I have asked him two questions about it.  And that is "where did that earring go?" and "Why did you put it in your box?"  I only showed it to him when I found it and he said "It's not mine".  Well of course it's not either of ours. It IS someone elses, and we don't know whose.  I asked no further questions and made no further accusations. And I'm not doing that here.

  I'm only writing b/c it gives me agony to have found such a thing as I'm trying not to let it bother me, and it helps to purge here instead of worrying him over it, especially if he is innocent.  Let's just say it didn't look good for any spouse whose wife finds an earring that is not theirs.  I't's just bothersome and of course any man would deny it.  And then putting the earring in his personal box that he takes to work did not do him any favors at all in the matter.  Best to have left the earring for me at my disposal as I wished and left it alone.  And it's not been disposed of.  I have it in my presence.  I asked for it back.  I've dropping the issue with him and I'm trying to forget it. It's basically his choice anyway.  I'm not going anywhere unless I see another woman attached to the earring, lol. 

 I'm choosing to believe him (with obvious reservations at this point, b/c we all know the wife is the last to know and we know a large percentage of men do.)   He did have some very fond friends to show up at the funeral that wore the similar earrings that I remember and we'll just leave it at that.  Maybe they are just really caring friends.   And everyone needs really caring friends.  I'm sure it's all a fluke most likely and a coincidence if the earrings were similar and if so this should be a very funny situation.

If not it is very sad, but at least he is home with me all the time and if there is another she doesn't get him for much time, and will be heartbroken at some point.  He's had these clingy women friends before that find his friendliness very charming and misconstrues his intentions and tries to cross the line with lunches and then facebook messages and so forth. I know he is on his phone a lot and I think that is probably his men friends over the Gibson thing.  One can hope.  I try to respect him and only occasionally say "who is texting?"  I'm on my phone a lot too with the Isagenix stuff, and he gives me my privacy.  So I do not intend on being a nagger.  I don't want that kind of life.  If someone wants me they do.  If they don't they don't.

I also know that he has mentioned doing lunch with women at work and that does not help his case a bit. Except that he tells me he does - not on the day but he mentions he may take someone out for lunch as a reward for doing something nice for him.  But not the day it happens.  I never hear that part.  But as far as I know all that is innocent.  I on the other hand do not do lunch with men anymore so there is NO question and when I do have a business lunch I let him know. I have to travel with  men at times but there is usually two present. And lots of phone calls after.   I just think that is proper at this point in our lives.  I am not a jealous person but at the same time do not want to be taken advantage of. And I wouldn't want my spouse to wonder.  So it seems appropriate. And when an earring is found in the dryer and you know your spouse DOES lunches with other women then how does that help one's case?   And like I said - at this point in my life I don't want to worry about it.  If there is a problem it's not gonna be mine.  I intend on living my life to the fullest and being joyous and loved - one way or the other.  If someone doesn't want me at this point, I'm not going to beg someone to love me.  I have way too much left in life I want to accomplish.  Even if I have to do it alone.  And I know God would provide what I needed.

So the girls prayed for me so I can get over it and move on.  I just know what I know.  And I can't un-know those things.  No one is blamed yet.  Everything is fine.  Now that God is involved if somethings are not as they should God will close the door like he has before when there have been thorns and issues stirring up. 

So gone be with all the earring  stuff.  I'm trying here.  The fact occurred that there WAS an earring but who knows where on earth it came from.  But it dredged up all sorts of thoughts.   If there is another woman he is not with her much.  lol lol lol There is THAT.  lol  But hopefully it just stuck to a collar over a friendly hug at the funeral and that was it.  Or was stuck on the new clothes that came in from Thred up.  I'm trying to forget that I'd seen the earrings before.  Earring baggage - begone now! Get on with ya big bad self. God holds the earring and any thing regarding it in his hands now.  I'ts outta mine!

That said, today is very exciting for me.  I am going to go blonde!  It will certainly be different!  Wish me luck!  More tomorrow.  I'll either be hiding my head in a hole or smiling really big! 




4 comments:

  1. Will be praying for you too. Trust is an important part of any relationship. Doubt is not ever easy to live with. Loving another person is trusting them with our hearts. I cannot imagine you as a blonde, but highlights would be nice. My daughter does that with her hair to hide the gray. So did I for many years, but after I turned 50 I let it all go and have been glad that I did. Not many do that as gray hair does having an aging affect, but it is much easier. Today is a new day, a fresh start. Make it a terrific Tuesday!

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  2. I just wanted to take a moment to remind you that your daughter lived with you for several months in the spring.

    It seems to me that it would be possible that it is one of her earrings. Perhaps, it had been caught in some crevice or other of the washer and/or dryer and is just now working its way out. Do you think that this is a possibility?

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    1. No. Not hers. She was the first obvious person to ask. And as she said it wasn't hers then sadly, that option was ruled out.

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  3. it is bothersome for sure. but i still think it is nothing to be concerned about. just a fluke. saying prayers you find peace of mind.

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