Wednesday, August 1, 2018

God's Timing, Guilt, Disappointment, and a Fresh Salad

 

Well, yesterday was a busy one.  We had 401k auditers in.  It wasn't a bad day though.  Just a lot going on b/w that and the rest.  After work I was craving a salad so I went and bought lettuce and an avacado.  We already had the rest at home.  It was really good.  I made a homemade dressing with olive oil, balsamic vinegar, garlic powder, onion powder, oregano, crushed red pepper, honey, and celery salt.  I was pleased.  We watched Below Deck Med.  Two shows.  It was great. Sleep was good.

Granny is 11 days in with no food and water, in Hospice.  What a strong woman she is.  Every day we think today is the day.  I don't know that she really knows who anyone is.  But she was awake yesterday when George went but then went to sleep pretty quickly.  

I've told my team that with each day that passes, it becomes unlikely that I'll be able to do the Global Celebration event.  No doubt everything will coincide on the timing.  Well, at least I am afraid to plan and look forward to it so that the disappointment level doesn't drop as low.  But what can one do?  I've prayed that I will be able to serve my family, my team, and work.  We are all at the mercy of God's timing and Others timing as well.  And family is obviously more important. So if not here in Nashville, I can hope for the Arizona trip in January six months from now.  I'm having some eeyore moments here and then I feel guilty for feeling sad about it. But as someone told me yesterday, why are feeling guilty about being sad?  You are just disappointed if you don't get to go to something you wanted to go to so badly so why would feel guilty?  You would be doing family first.  So you would be doing the right thing.  There is no reason for you to be glad about missing it. lol  So you are feeling normal feelings. 

True.  

Boy it is hard for us planners to let go and let God! With my ticket bought my loving others and my hotel room already paid for - it is truly sad if the timing is all at the same time, but there is no point in worrying or fretting.  It will be what it will be.  And maybe by some small hair of a trace of hope, the timing will not be impacted.  I guess I've been too trained by life- to know how plans can change.  I was just saddened when I realized "oh no, this is all gonna be happening at once". 

Proverbs 17:22 A joyful heart is good medicine but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.  

Well, I gotta go.  Metro schools are in session today and that will put me 15 minutes later getting to getting to work.  Since I have the morning dog duty walk now, it really plays havoc with the morning schedule and trying to get out the door on time.  I refuse to get up earlier than 4 to get done what I want to get done in the morning.  So I will probably have to be more toward 8 getting there during the school season.  Either that and not blog and we all know that is not going to happen.  I will blog come hell or high water.  It's necessary for purging, so I can start the next
 day.  lol. And the tribe has spoken on that issue. 

Well ya'll have a good one.  Take care. 

1 comment:

  1. That salad looks wonderful and just perfect for a hot summertime meal. I recently read that and avocado has twice the potassium as a banana. They are very good for you. Try to live one day at a time and not worry about tomorrow. Today is the only one we, any of us, are assured of. Schools really start early for you there. Some here go back to school mid August and some not till after Labor Day. Take care in the traffic and make the best of today !

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