Friday, November 9, 2018

Discouraged and Calling the Doc

It was such a pretty day yesterday leaving the house.  I got out of the car and captured a few more photos.  

This photo actually popped up in my memories!  I used to love this tree face.  It is gone now.  I bought George another one a few years ago but he has not put it up.  :-(  I guess he didn't like it as well as I did.  

 The clouds added to the pretty morning.  I thanked the Lord for such beauty. 

And there I was last week thinking everything was just turning brown and I was wishing to be in Vermont! lol.  But we have our very own Vermont happening!   At this point it will not last long.  It's raining out there now and I suspect we'll have bare trees soon.  I also love the smell of wet leaves in the fall.  

Well, I'm sad to say that the issues are back.  I had laid off the probiotics the last two days since it was better.  It doesn't seem to matter what I eat - I've eaten different things and it just does it when it wants to.  All I know is that the pro biotics help and I thought the cleanse made it worse, but it is happening w/o me cleansing.  So now I'm not sure. 

But YES, I'm going to the doctor today.  I will go to work and make an appointment.  There is no guarantee I'll get in today. So I don't want to wait here this morning and call.  I'll go in and get done what I can and take whatever appointment I can get.  If I need to go next week I may have to move some things around on the calendar.  Because the week is really stacking up.  

I have an orientation this morning at 8 as well and I'll get that done. If the appt is mid day I'll just take laptop and work home for the rest of the day b/c I'm not driving in to work back to the doc in MJ and then back into Nashville again.  So we'll see what happens.  

I feel great.  So something is just not right.  An imbalance?  Or do I have cancer?  No other symptoms of the cancer thing.  But it's not comfortable reading about.  

I got in my salted caramel shake.  I haven't had one yet. Also got in my Jingle Essential Oils.  
Just not sure what is going on but it's time to go see.  

I was getting better and so I was so upset yesterday.  I give up.  I can't control this.  God whispers "I have a reason. Trust me."

So I will.  I told George that I wanted to be excited about life and things we are planning but I'm afraid to be happy in case something is wrong.  There may not be anything to be excited about any more.  

Only God knows.  I hope it's all going to be ok.  If not good news, at least I won't be frustrated with this world anymore.  

So prayers please.  I'd love for this to be ok and to get to see my grandchildren one day.  I really do want to enjoy life. Right now it's getting hard to do with this slapping you in the face every day.


  1. I will be praying that soon you'll be back to normal. It is upsetting when we have health issues but we need to trust that things will work out for the best. The fall pictures are just beautiful. Im so thankful we have a bit of color left to brighten the rainy days we've been having. Take care and hopefully you will get an appointment for today!

  2. If it were me, I would go back to the shakes and cleanses regardless of what is happening down below, my body needs that consistent good nutrition and having the other "comfort" things that I know don't agree with my internals gets in the way of that. It may just be a passing tummy bug.

    I also find that times of stress can cause sub-optimal bathroom time for me - this past week with the fox attack here was an example of that, it will probably take a week or so to settle.

    I would definitely keep up the probiotics. I take one every single day and I have for some years now. :)

    I hope the doctor has some answers for you. I will keep a good thought!

  3. frustrating for sure. i will be praying for your return to good health.


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